I very much need to cry, big time, in the worst way. For about a year.
And simply I cannot. And it's killng me. I really need to cry.

It's not a matter of dried up tear ducts, no.
I can feel my upper chest sort of make a whimper and I feel "all set" in my facial muscles , eyes, nose and all ready to cry. But it's always a dud.

Today on purpose I watched both Casa Blanca and Gone With the Wind.
I know myself to blubber bigtime watching those always in the past.
It was painful today, i.e. the physiological and emotional urges were all present.
Yet I am incapable of crying. It really is an aching hurt.

I'm suspecting lithium has become the culprit for many maladies for me.
I've read where it does deaden feeling.

Ts don't take this seriously.

Anyone with any similar experience, insight, wisdom? If so, thanks.