[SDFencer]

Hi everyone:
It's been a gazillion years sine I've written but I have to whine. I've had to retire from fencing because the mandatory seatback height of my chair rubs right up against my back fusion and leaves me in pain the next day. It's like the old bit, "Doctor it hurts when I do this. Then don't do that."

Robin and I bought a mobile home in a 55+ park. The bigger the Grandkids get the smaller this house becomes and I am having trouble climbing the stairs. We are blowing it out to the 4 walls and rebuilding it. New appliances (every one, dual pane windows, washer, dryer, AC unit, Tankless water heater, furnace, granite countertops, and I get to buy a golf cart to get around the grounds. http://www.newfrontiercommunities.com/

I switched to going to the Y from the Challenge Center because cost became an issue. I go 3 times a week and use what can best be described as a seated Nordic-trak machine for 30 minutes. My new hobby is falling.

OK, now to the issue. When I'm at the Y I feel my old normal self, joking, etc. I get home and it's the Scotties and me and we're going to have to make "that" appointment for them soon. I am just incredibly sad but can't seem to cry. It's frustrating as hell. I'm even having thoughts about doing something but I love being around my grandchildren too much, and I'm afraid I might miss something. I'm being treated like the invisible person more at home and all I want to do is sleep. Oh, when we move I was thinking of getting a webcam to do Skype with friends in the US and UK. Anyone here Skype? Discuss

[ger715]

Originally Posted by SDFencer

Hi everyone:
It's been a gazillion years sine I've written but I have to whine. I've had to retire from fencing because the mandatory seatback height of my chair rubs right up against my back fusion and leaves me in pain the next day. It's like the old bit, "Doctor it hurts when I do this. Then don't do that."

Robin and I bought a mobile home in a 55+ park. The bigger the Grandkids get the smaller this house becomes and I am having trouble climbing the stairs. We are blowing it out to the 4 walls and rebuilding it. New appliances (every one, dual pane windows, washer, dryer, AC unit, Tankless water heater, furnace, granite countertops, and I get to buy a golf cart to get around the grounds. http://www.newfrontiercommunities.com/

I switched to going to the Y from the Challenge Center because cost became an issue. I go 3 times a week and use what can best be described as a seated Nordic-trak machine for 30 minutes. My new hobby is falling.

OK, now to the issue. When I'm at the Y I feel my old normal self, joking, etc. I get home and it's the Scotties and me and we're going to have to make "that" appointment for them soon. I am just incredibly sad but can't seem to cry. It's frustrating as hell. I'm even having thoughts about doing something but I love being around my grandchildren too much, and I'm afraid I might miss something. I'm being treated like the invisible person more at home and all I want to do is sleep. Oh, when we move I was thinking of getting a webcam to do Skype with friends in the US and UK. Anyone here Skype? Discuss

Hey Fencer,

Just a thought; might be good to invite a friend or two from the Y to come over and visit every now and again. This would probably take your mind off "things" and others will get to see the old normal self they probably don't often see at home.

Gerry

[SDFencer]

Actually one of the guys in the group lives in the same park to which we are moving. I really don't see myself socializing outside the gym with any of the guys. I feel so much better when I'm in a group and just fall to the depths at home.

Hopefully all the activities they have for residents will perk me up. I miss working so much My old employers sat there and bald face lied during the deposition.

My dogs are near me having to make "that" appointment. I sit shiva when I lose a pet. I am just so sad all the time. I'm told I will never be able to do certain things any more (All motion related, I can't stand for more than a minute or two without falling over. So why am I even trying to get better? For who am I doing it? I'm seriously starting to think about giving up.

[Lara]

Sorry to read how you're feeling Fencer.

How old are your dogs? Are you not able to have them when you move into your new place?
That must be an awful worry for you.

Moving is very stressful (before, during and after) so I hope you've got lots of help and support while you go through that transition. Once you're settled in there you might find a new lease on life. It looks as if it's a nice, well kept place and once you've organized the renovations in your new home, you might find you are feeling much better and less stressed.

Please don't give up.

[PamelaJune]

Find a song that makes you smile, find a song that brings back good memories. Sing the song, hum the song, do whatever it takes to make you feel good. Moving in itself is stressful, feeling isolated is stressful and feeling overlooked is mind numbing. Belt out that song, let people know you are here in this life, you are alive and ready for what the day will bring. I'm so sorry about the Scotties, assume they are getting old and their time approaches.. Big hug

[SDFencer]

And now, my famous , " Yeah, but..." As I listen to songs that makes me think of happy times it makes me sadder that I'm not there/can't do it. ( geeze does nothing make this guy happy?) We can't take the dogs with us and they are 11 an 12. They both have cancer and I have to face I shouldn't keep them here if they are in pain. Who am I extending their time on earth for? There damn well better be a Rainbow Bridge.