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03-13-2016, 07:02 AM | #261 | |||
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being on this site
my gutt feeling of doom is gone i have a better frame of mind i feel less tense my muscles relaxing much easier when conscious of the madness with the weather getting better i will return to my home group meeting Sunday morning 9:00 A.M. i miss it and have so much to offer on addiction and i MISS MY DOG with all my being i wish someone could bring him to me i have not cried since the good feeling came over me i interpret this as a miracle the love of my dog is so deep i am in tears thinking of him but i will always be part of this site my friends who suffer i will come to me
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03-21-2016, 07:23 AM | #262 | |||
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Well to say that sad things don't happen
Is like saying The sun never shines I want to share now the kind of feeling I am experiencing since adding some very vital missing nutrients in my body that has made Unbelievable changes for the better Never would I have thought Having a very healthy diet How missing FOLATE (not the same as folic acid) Made such a huge difference That made me wonder Why can't this be taught in Heath class The importance of nutrients could be ROOT CAUSES of many problems So many people do not understand what the first sign is inflammation Most time the area is ANGRY How I try to express the idea to watch for inflammation Example If one were to accidentally cut their finger while cooking What is the first sign that the cut IS NOT HEALING PROPERLY it is red angry and SWOLLEN If left unkept One could die from sepsis So I would implore anyone who just is not doing well Not to give up Find a doctor who will leave NO STONE UNTURNED I haven't found one myself I was ready to go to my daughters doctor He knew of the importance of getting my addict daughter to get the nutrient in her body As she to tested positive for the MTHFR mutation There is a very good chance she too will experience a feel good brain No FOGGINESS Giving her a better chance to have a better frame of mind trying to kick her deadly addiction If she gets just half the results I do She has a fighting chance to be free of addiction A long shot But I'll keep praying for the best She has been suffering close to two decades now There is a young fellow who I follow Am just in awe at his persistence Just in awe He too will find the root I wish people could pay closer attention to their bodies as it talks to us Such as I felt and knew there was something underlying going on when having ceverical neck surgeries and found my cancer And I have to say NONE OF MY DOCTORS WERE PAYING ATTENTION OR LISTENING TO ME for that matter So for this cookie I DO NOT TRUST ANYONE WITH MY BODY I am not a test subject I was let down over and over again until I took charge I fired my shrink it is the second time now And he calls wanting to send me samples and copies of the two (not one) as the insurance company sent him to fill out This I am looking forward to seeing the truth As I spoke with a worker of my health insurance Richard who explained to me that a single sheet was faxed And a few questions needed to be filled out by him REASON FOR THE FIRE: "(It was tedious and he felt it was a doubious thought)" We shall see We shall see To those still suffering the deep depression When in the abyss of it all I hope will find it lift from their lives Don't give in and give up You MATTER as is the state of ones MIND I know abnormal behavior I know seasonal and physical depression I know what it was like PMS-ing when I had my menses I know hormonal depression I know suicidal depression I know addiction (alcohol abuse) I know physician induced medication that makes us slaves to them for I suffer immense pain due to many sad things (A body slowly rotting) As when we are babies we get to a plateau When the body begins to become closer to the earth Death emanate Yet we can be proactive And slow the clock down And get a better quality of life And say I am going to LIVE BEFOR I DIE I hope my sharing is uplifting I know Love Me
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03-21-2016, 09:17 AM | #263 | ||
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thank you for your inspiring words eva. i needed something to get me to try to make the most out of my day today too. i am feeling a bit more depressed then usual today and you helped lift my spirits. i hope that your daughter starts to heal and that you do too. i am going to try to live until i die too! life is too short to waste on tears. thank you again for being such a beautiful soul. love and hugs.
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03-21-2016, 12:50 PM | #264 | ||
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Eva, keep talking about your Folate miracle. Folate is not taught in medical schools. Pharma drugs are taught there for the most part, never being in medical school I can only imagine. Pathetically but true, doctors need people to be sick.
Those reading your info, can get on MFolate on their own. It's for sale otc everywhere. I take a much lower dose than you and no gloom doom in my mind. C |
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03-23-2016, 06:49 AM | #265 | |||
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The weather is gloomy
Yet I am not visited by doom My gut is rid for a little bit of time now Something I welcome The weather is crushing my head bones all over But this I understand My withdrawal symptoms very much alive I still in awe at everything Yesterday on the phone a passionate conversation Had still a half hour to go for afternoon meds this is when my second dose of Xanax is I was walking around the house when in conversation I had to sit and pay very close attention to my breathing I did not feel well My chest heavy pounding heart arrhythmia very scary As I feel ju the have dose take affect on my body father then brain How screwed up is that I need the blanking thing more fore my body reacting to the decrease I have a good sense of self once it is in my system It is going to take a long time getting it out of my body In awe how that horrible feeling I would carry around with me all day is lifted I still think about my shrink and his phone message left after I fired him He failed me Failed me And he knows it He was suppose to help me get better and feel better Instead he did not care How can a doctor this is not just my first experience but so many that I have seen since becoming ill with my spine My neck was crushed I had no choice according to two doctors I needed surgery Oh what I would do to take it back So many failed me Blatantly for that matter My breast reconstructive doctor had his partner come in and show him what a good job he had done A. I am larger than I was originally My breasts were large B small C They are a large D My left side was the reason for my visit to his office because only two years latter being sent back to him by Oncologist it clearly was defective Oh god and how he tried to sell me his bull crap I am so disappointed in all doctors of my past So glad to have fired them My surgeon I know I am on his mind That's if his ego is as big as I know it is I know I am branded in his brain I know my words ring in his ear I do not go to bed with him at night And I no longer wake up with him on my mind He does not consume my brain Taking the missing folate Gave me a sense of rebirth A life A life with much adversities But can push forward with it in a better frame of mind How did this happen I can say with complete confidence I did the work myself after the finding did extensive research and have been feeling 99.999% better I kid you not I would never do that FOR ME IT TOOK "FOLATE" after finding the mutation I have changed just a few simple things And got dramatic physical most importantly a feel of mental well being And if I told you all how quickly I had begun to feel the change You wouldn't believe it Or think i to be psychosomatic in it all I tell you not To myself I am true To my friends I want to share the good stuff for a change It is springtime The air and sun giving that good feel stuff May you all find the root of what I understand as deep depression is taken seriously by doctors I want those to get the same benefit from just a small thing such as introducing folate into my body and it feels GOOD WHY WOULD I NOT SHARE IT WITH OTHERS it may have been something that simple Yet for me LIFE-CHANGING take care of YOU love Me
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04-04-2016, 08:35 AM | #266 | |||
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Addiction
Not in a good place Excuses Excuses She too does not fight me anymore Sadly So sadly To see my child not do well health wise Head wise Not fighting the fight she needs to SEE understand that she controls herself and choices she makes She is a intelligent woman Lost So lost Every once in a while A snippet of clarity And tries and tries Until she commits to a meeting every single day She will never know freedom For excuses Excuses Are the matter So sad So sad My baby Is changed forever Me
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04-04-2016, 12:38 PM | #267 | ||
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hi eva. i'm so sorry that your daughter is still struggling. and i am so sorry that you have to see her struggle and feel so helpless. i feel everything you expressed in your words. its is very painful to see a loved one struggle with addiction. my brother is not doing well and i fear getting worse. he has snippets of clarity too but only for a brief moment and then it is gone again. all i can do is pray he will find his way back to the man i once knew. i will pray that your daughter will find her way back to the woman you once knew too. love and hugs to you my friend. i hope you know you are not alone. i am always here if you need a friend who understands and cares.
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04-04-2016, 02:05 PM | #268 | |||
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and bottom line to it all is the painful truth we are helpless in this time and all we can do is pray and i know you are always ready as i will be for you hang on together many good thoughts your way take care of You God will take care of the rest as i am a believer in Jesus i Trust in humanity i am a worker for my Father to be wherever i am needed i will be there Amen love me
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04-04-2016, 07:20 PM | #269 | ||
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my dearest Eva, i am so grateful for the kindness and support i have found from you and everyone here at NT. i don't know what i would do without you to lean on and talk to when things get too tough to deal with on my own. and i hope you always know i am always here for you too. i read somewhere to "Let Go and Let God." i am going to do that now with my brother because i don't feel like i can help him anymore. i pray he will ask me for help someday soon and get better. and i pray that your daughter will too. until then, i am so glad i have you to lean on because this is so very painful and too hard to endure all alone. thank you again for caring so much and for being there. i understand and care too and i always will. love, hugs and prayers.
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04-04-2016, 11:19 PM | #270 | |||
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Who will be there when that time comes Sooner than later would be wonderful Yet the road they travel will need us to be around when ready He knows you love him This I am certain of As my daughter has now seen No more nonsense with mommy I don't want to loose her She knows that And how real that could be if she does not stop I know where you are And I am glad I am able to be here for you Always Your friend Sweet dreams As I retire with prayer Love Me
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