little bit of hope
 

Well I went to a new phychatrist on Thursday and he is going to talk to his associate and maybe have a decision what i should do if i can get the vns surgery i have to meet back with them on June 3 which seems so long from now. I have waited 12 years and i am just getting frustrated. I want to get better and go back to school and get into a career that I always wanted to do. I thank all of yous for your support and just to talk is nice. The doctor said the neurologist has no say in what i get done its his decision. if they approve me on the 3rd than they send in the paper to insurance company and if they approve it than i go to a nerosurgeon.:o

Denise
 

I know that you are desperate. All of the time it takes to get help is also hard. It takes time. My heart goes out to you.:hug: Brokenfriend

Hi Denise,
 

I am glad that things are moving forward for you. I hope the VNS does what you need it to do.

I was offered the ECT back years ago and my PCP said no to it also. I was so bad off, I would have let them do about anything so he made that decision for me.

I think you will get better and be able to go back to school. Once you get this VNS approved, it starts moving pretty fast. It's a one day surgery and then they wait about 2 weeks to turn it on, sometimes less, it depends on how fast you heal from the surgery.

Hang in there.

Ada

defeated
 

I feel like i lost this battle i am so tired of suffering. I want to thank everyone for their support. but this is one battle i cant win i have been through rape physical abuse but nothing tops this depression. thanks for all your advice.

June 3rd is not that far away Denise...it's next Tuesday! You really need to give the VNS a try....you might just gain a whole new future. :hug:
Please don't give up....we are here for you. :grouphug:

thank you for your support but now they dont know if they want to do the vns surgery. or try other medication i am giving up hope that a medication will work for me and i am affraid i will hit rock bottom very soon again and i feel like i am getting closer eachtime i try to take my life closer to it i dont know what to do at this point i was looking forward to the vns because that was giving me alittle bit of hope now on june 3 like 5 of us are going to discuss what the best option is for me and i am affraid if it is not what i hope than i will lose it again. i am just tired of being disappointed at this point thanks again for all your love and support even though yous dont even know me its ashame i only have my husband and now i have all these strangers that are like my family. thank yous from the bottom of my heart and thank you to my husband for being my rock when i am not strong enough to get out of bed or stand on my own two feet.:grouphug:

Hi Denise
 

Please don't give up. Sometime the clouds make it feel to dark in depression. My dear Denise,we all love you here. Your strong husband is there for a reason. The light of life is close. It does not feel like it sometimes.

Tell your doctors what you have told us. There is hope. Believe me,there must be a answer. Have you been to the Post Traumatic Stress Syndrome area on here.

My dear Denise,you are precious. You belong here on earth. They are getting closer,and closer to new cures. They are even doing research as we speak all over the world to bring about new tremendous help.

Do you think you are seeing the right doctor? Allot of us have had some crummy Psychiatrists. I've had several in a row. I plan on seeing a different one in a couple of weeks.

Knowledge,and understanding of emotional trauma,has doubled in the last 10 years. I think it's going to double in the next 5 years. They are gaining momentum continually on how to treat us.

Have you tried a good church? I have found warmth,and encouragement there. Brokenfriend:hug:

Just want to send you a :hug: Denise and check your PMs ;)

thank you for your words of encouragement i guess i will just have to see what happens on tuesday i am very nervous. so is my husband because whenever i am let down he knows thats when i am most dangerous to myself. thanks again for everything yous really are angels on earth. and i have found alot of comfort on this site thanks again

Your welcome Denise
 

I hope that today goes well. It early Tuesday morning. I'm thinking about you. I'm so glad that you have a compassionate husband. That's so wonderful.

Think of about ten good things to live for. If you think about ten,you can think about twenty. Then you can make a list.

I hope it goes well. If not,you can get a second opinion. There are always other options. Think beyond this week,and think into the future,with your husband. Think about your kids achievements,and future.

If one door closes,look around,and another door opens. There are always people who want to help. There are always places to go for help. The Sun rises every morning. There's always prayer,and hope. There's always a way to cope.

I hope that you have a nice day precious Denise,the apple of God's eyes. Brokenfriend:hug::hug::hug: