[wishfulthinking]

I am such a failure. Why do I keep failing at everything I do? I try my best to finish everything but it's so hard to finish this one task that I have my mind set on. I keep crying and I keep telling myself that I can succeed when really I can't. I am only fooling myself. I am going to end up failing school this semester and I really don't want to but it's happening. I can't help it. I have been so sick this semester and I have been so down that it's not funny.

I hate this time of the year. I hate November period. It's always so hard on me and with my therapist not wanting to help me makes me feel even more like a failure than before. I wish that I could just find a way to disappear. I wish that I could fly away and never come back. I hate feeling this way. I wish I knew what to do.

Wishful

[clouds z]

i had shingles and eye infection for last 2 months and was in hospital for 4 days so i feel life isnt so bad ,if im not in the doctors office

your life is ok compared to others

count your blessings

[Snoopy]

Wishful,

Are you still hanging in there with the Prozac? It will make a difference but it takes time.

You might look into getting a book - The Feeling Good Handbook by David D. Burns, M.D.

Depression can suck the life out of you but at some point you have to help yourself, you have to reach out to the mental health profession. Your therapist couldn't/wouldn't help you but another therapist, a better therapist can.

Even with the help of a mental health professional and meds YOU are the one who needs to be willing to work at feeling better. Unfortunately, getting your life back and feeling better does not come easy, it takes a lot of hard and painful work on your part but in the end well worth it.

[jingle]

(((wishful))) I'm wishing you the best. I wish you felt better.
I understand about hating November -- I do too. I hate November and December. Oh, how I dread those holidays.
I don't have any good or smart advice for you so all I can do is send you a little (((hug)))

[Julie]

Biggest of hugs Wishful. I'm sorry things are bad right now.

[wishfulthinking]

I know what it takes to feel good. I have the ability to do so. Just some days I need to cry! Somedays I need to feel bad so that I when I do feel good I cherish every moment I have. Yesterday I just needed to cry. I got it all out of my system and now I am fine. Thanks for all the hugs!
Wishful

[Curious]

we all need that sometimes wish. i'm glad today is better for you.

[Soidhonia]

Hello I hope you are feeling better at this time. I am going to leave you the hotline number for depression and mental health issues. 1-800-273-TALK. I hope you feel better on your medication as well, it is hard to get throught the Winter at times with depression, and you may have to go through medicaiton adjustments at that time. Take care sincerely soidhonia