[wishfulthinking]

I should be happy especially when my older sister is getting married on Christmas Eve. I am so stressed out and so down that it isn't even funny. Her grandpa is here and for the last two years he has done nothing but harrass me through letters in the mail. I don't want anything to do with him. He makes me sick to my stomach. How can I make sure I am safe at my sister's wedding? How can I make sure he doesn't try to kidnap me and take me to Arizona with him? How can I make sure that he doesn't hurt me or any one else at the party? He is such a creep and I don't trust him. What am I going to do about this? If I see him I know I am just going to snap! I am already stressed out enough as it is. I just don't need this right now.

Any way I am going to go sleep this off. I hope that by morning I will feel better. I am just so depressed and so blue tonight. I have been crying for a while now and I am just ready for bed. I wish I knew what to do.
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