I have never been blessed with much grace in my life, so for me to complain about this is almost sprinkled with irony.

I have a severe midline shift to my right side, needless to say - I run into a lot of things. I underwent vision therapy as there is no correction for my coordination (or lack thereof) and it helped a little, but I think most of that may have been in my head.

Maybe I am unwilling to accept the aging process, maybe it's my epilepsy, maybe it's related to my crappy eyes that can't be fixed, or perhaps the Lyme, or 'something' else. But I am getting worse.

I can only compare it to being blind and having someone move something in your home that you have become used to being in the same spot. The only difference is I can see, I see it there and then I run dab smack into it. My days are painful, sometimes funny (if I can't laugh at myself, what can I do?) and typically messy since I spill a lot of things.

It's like being extremely clumsy and lacking depth perception.

When I fill my coffee pot, I do it twice because I spill about 1/4 of the water aiming for the hole. When I fill my coffee cup, it overflows 3 out of 5 times. When I walk past my staircase (which is awkwardly located in the middle of my house), I run into it 4 out of 5 times. I run into doorways more than anything, always on my right side.

Now I keep tripping over my foot which is new. It's like it doesn't come up enough and from the top center of it down to my toes it drags and then I trip. Almost like my foot is dragging and my leg isn't catching on to pick it up. I caught myself yesterday walking to my mailbox like a horse where I was pulling my knees up to avoid tripping.

Is there something that would cause my foot to suddenly become a lazy addition to my leg? I'm sure I'll eventually learn to deal with it, but it's annoying. I usually laugh and anyone in my house usually laughs with me (or at me) but it's not really funny all of the time.

I will usually trip over the top half of my foot (it kind of bends) or my foot stays sort of flat and it drags and I end up tripping that way.

I feel like I'm nuts, heh.

I'm not paying for vision therapy again since most insurance companies think it's some fad thing. Plus, being taught how to walk is kind of weird since I know how to walk and all.

I was thinking maybe it has to do with the Lyme as my joints swell up a lot now and even the muscle covered areas of my arms and legs swell too. I thought maybe the swelling makes my foot mad or something.

Anywho, it could probably be anything or just me being a clumsy nitwit. I just wanted to vent about it. Just had carpet cleaned last week and then tripped today and spilled coffee on it.

Gah!