[ewizabeth]

I'm starting to wonder if I should apply for SSDI because of fatigue. I've been job hunting for nearly three months now since we closed the old company and I've only had one interview. I know my age plays against me (I'm 51) but if someone actually hires me, I don't know if I'll be able to hold down a real job.

I worked M,T,TH, & F at my last job and it was very difficult for me to stay awake and stay focused, even with Provigil twice a day.

I started a home based business and it's all set up, have done a variety of advertising, but I don't have the energy to go out to meet people, etc... We've been very slow and I don't know if it will pick up or not. I can't afford to put more money into it, especially if it isn't going to have any returns.

It's hard enough for me to function at home doing regular activities, let alone going to a job each day. And to drive out of town, forget about it.

I would need a comfortable desk and chair and climate control and really, who is going to want to be jumping at the chance for that, at my age? I miss frequently for doctor appointments. I look tired too, the fatigue starts to show on my face after a few hours of any activity.

I adjust my symptoms meds and things go haywire. The ones I take are the ones I need and can't do without. I feel exhausted most of the time. I can get things done sometimes, but those are spurts that last a day or two then I need to rest and take it easy for 3-4 days.

I also take blood pressure meds and anti-depressants and meds to help me sleep. I need baclofen off and on for muscle spasticity. That gets worse if I have to sit for long periods of time. And then of course I go for my monthly infusion that requires an entire day. I'm always tired the next day too and get nothing done then.

I haven't mentioned this to DH or my neuro yet, just want to get some feedback from you all here.

I have always been one to put on a strong front, but that's wearing me out too.

I have always been a hard worker and I hate to think about this, but it's starting to look like it might be necessary?