I'm there too, Judy. I keep up my hopes through faith, the only thing left.

I can't take anti-depressants because I have porphyria. Porphyria probably was the biochemical cause of my MS. My MS is probably that kind, not the auto-immune kind. We talked about that kind some time ago on the new-old forum.

I would love to take ANY anti-depressant.

My only help is getting outside in clean air. Even in your chair, have you got a place where the air is clean and the view beautiful? I miss the Pacific NW, but our clean air and sky-views in New Mexico are great.

Also, I get help from a TV program we can get here, Light of the Southwest, which has great guests on it. It can be accessed by computer in many places, even worldwide. It's on 7-9 Mountain Time. It is something I look forward to all day, and it makes me laugh as well as "filling me in" on things I want to know.

We are snowed in again, fourth time this winter....too cold, dark.

Mariel