As you know, I had an appointment with my new PCP today. Something happened at the doctor’s office that hasn’t happened to me in a while. I got all teary-eyed when I was asked how I have been feeling. I am absolutely MORTIFIED! I just hope that they know that this is an MS thing, because I was too choked up to explain it. Boy! Some days it just doesn’t pay to get up in the morning.

Your reaction is an MS thing and your doctor would know that it is.

Forget about what happened and move on. It is only a blip on your life and this memory will pass or will become less horrible to you soon.

My doctor told me that people with chronic conditions are almost always depressed due to the uncertainty of having to live with the unknown. That made sense to me.

gmi

Did anything in particular make you cry? Was it a tone of voice?

Aw, Marion, I so understand. Been there, done that. It was all his fault for having a nice voice at the wrong time.

Did he respond or run away and turn you over to the nurse. Men, in general, do not understand women's tears.

How did the overall visit go?

Actually, it was in front of the nurse that I started blubbering. I had managed to partially compose myself before the doctor came in. I didn't really even ask half the questions I wanted to. I just wanted to get out of there with the shred of dignity I managed to muster. I see him again next week, so I guess I can ask him my questions next week.

I'm goin' to bed. <<sniff>>

Better days are ahead.

I reckon these guys are used to it and don't think anything of it. Don't worry yourself. Part of the course.

I remember arriving for my diagnosis with red eyes having opened and read the report on my way there. He know that I knew and he just came out with it. Uncontrolable tears were just part of the conversation.

The tears were quite justified too.

gmi

Marion....this happened to me on the 15th! I was on my way to my 1st Tysabri infusion appointment...and during the drive there, I aparently had my first 'panic attack'. I completely lost my bearings, and my confidence however I did not feel particularily anxious about the actual Infusion. I had just had troubles with reading the directions to get to the appointment, and was overcome with 'tears'. By the time I got to the desk where I needed to check in...I was completely 'Blubbering' and crying hard enough that I could not find the words to tell the nurse 'why' I was there. By the time I was able to get my words out, a few nurses had gathered around the desk...and they were all very supportive that it was normal to feel overwhelmed when having the first infusion...when in fact, the infusion was not my problem...my problem was the fact that I got 'lost' on the way to the appointment. I was completely mortified by not being able to control my crying long enough to explain that 'being lost' was in fact, the reason why I was blubbering. So now, there are several nurses at the Infusion center who think I had a 'emotional melt down' because of the infusion...when in fact, the infusion was the easiest part of the whole appointment!

I wish I could just 'turn off' the tears, because it is so frustrating to be crying over the 'little things'. I just never know when I am going to cry about something...but it always seems to happen at the most inopportune times! Geez!

Marion!

Sometimes when someone asks us how we are doing, and no one has asked that question in a long time, in that tone of voice, as if they truly care how you ARE actually doing-you cry.

You hope that they don't write you down as a head case in your charts and you move on, and you make sure that the next time you see them that you appear capable and in control.

Doctors and nurses are used to this. It's a part of the job.

it sounds like crying was a cathartic thing, which is a good release of built up emotions. i'm glad you have another appt soon. write your Q's down. that might help you out.

good luck with the appt.