Thank you everyone for your replies, suggestions and comments. It is very helpful and much appreciated.

Ironincally, the regular neurologist where I have been at over the last few years is a neuro clinic where they treat MS- a specialty clinic for MS patients. And I have resquested more MRI's numerous times and have been rejected each time. Why? Because the OTHER TWO- LOL - both were 'clear'. ugh! Ironically, since the last one all of the symptoms have severely progressed. ALL of them. DH tells me all of the time it is like I dread getting out of bed every day- he thinks I don't want to live due to our family life. I tried to explain it isn't that. It is how physically/mentally I feel and how it has taken a toll on him and our children/family life. DH is trying to understand more now. He is constantly asking me to take breaks if I feel tired or severe vertigo, etc. But I don't anymore due to fear of making him mad. Or having friends/family show up and seeing our house look like a wreck.

Today I woke up and wasn't able to 'get out' of bed. My son had an appointment for allergy shots. He had to actually drag me out of bed to just drive him to the appt. That is not normal for me. It was humbling. I felt so sorry for my son. He is understands. He knows something is not right with me. I talk about it with my boys. And I tell them how sorry I am for ruining their summer we had planned this year. It just agonizes me knowing I haven't been the mom I wanted to be this year. grr

I didn't realize but i missed other symptoms that I forgot to write down from above. The list is endless. All I know- is I literally think I'm losing it!! Ugh

Need to get some things done- Hope I am able to get some things done today. HOPE! Yes- I live off of that word daily. It is all one can do.

Love you all. Thank you for your kindness. I will keep you posted on my 'radical medical workup' that still continues to linger on. Hope someday they will figure it out. My luck- They will keep telling me it is all in my head.

Coffeegirl