Erin,
You're such a good daughter. I know it must be really hard and you're not made of stone, but you never sound really angry at your Mom, but know she has become what she is, but is still your Mom, how confusing! As a Mom who has had to have her teen-age daughter pick me up off the floor and my biggest fear is she'll resent me and she never does and that brings tears to my eyes and she tells me and I know she's always got my back, yet she treats me appropriately at other times and rolls her eyes and does her "Oh, Mom". Anyway, thanks to all you daughters to your Moms.

I wish I could spend just 5 minutes with my Mom...

Me too. And my Dad. B2Y, you made me tear up.

disclaimer: Remember, I'm on 'roids. So if anyone can tell that halfway thru writing this the 'roids took over and I started crying and probably kvetching (complaining/whining) a lot. That's the 'roids talking. Not me. (I went over and re-read this before posting, it sounded a little whiny, so I'm posting this disclaimer)

I like my mom, it's just that I've been stuck in the house with her for over a week. I need a break. (dad took her to the grocery store for awhile at least)

My mom does not have an empathy gene. She doesnt understand that my dad has a very serious heart condition, and she doesnt get that I've got MS. She knows I have it, but she doesnt get it. I'm the person who takes her everywhere when my dad doesnt feel good, and I always seem to know what she wants to eat when she cant decide on something at a restaurant.

Dad just retired, and he hasnt learned yet how to deal with my mom in a restaurant, and he's ticked her off by losing his patience with her when she wants something he considers not healthy. (I let her eat the stuff. It makes her happy, but I can sometimes quietly steer her towards things that are not french fries or bacon)

I just have felt like crap for the better part of a month now, and really crappy for a week now. I just want to be able to go upstairs without getting yelled at by my mom because I cant just drop everything and entertain her the way she's used to. She doesnt get that I'm really not feeling good right now. I can only stay in my room so long before I just want to go to a yarn store and walk around and feel the yarn and buy a bunch of crochet hooks and a skein or 20 to make something.

It sucks that it's just before Christmas too. I'm so glad that I started shopping early because I think I got most of what I wanted to buy for people, but my mom wants to go do a bunch of shopping. I kind of did that earlier with her than I usually do, so I'm glad I did that, but she doesnt remember very well that I've taken her out 3 times, so she thinks she hasnt done much shopping. (reason why I havent wrapped anything yet, so I can open the door to the office and point out the pile of stuff she's bought)

Really, I just want all this MS crap to hurry up and heal if it's going to so I can feel normal (not numb and in pain) again for a little while. I'd also like a mom who wasnt brain damaged by a drunk driver in 1957 that's now causing dementia too, but I cant have everything.

I think I'm just scared that I'm about to have to start shopping for a wheelchair or move to a house/apartment where my bedroom isnt in a basement. (we have a stair chair lift thingie here, so at least I can ride that up and down)

Sorry about any whining I may have just done. It's the 'roids.

Sal, I hear ya...blech...my pond outside is almost to the top from all of the rain...if this was snow...wow...
I hate feeling this cranky at the holiday time...but we've already celebrated Christmas with the kids, so I think I have the post-holiday blues early...
I just want to sleep until we leave for vacation in 3 months...