ok,so I am newly dx with this stupid disease,and am wondering what is normal?! I guess that "normal"no longer applies.I will go days or weeks feeling great,then like this weekend,I was really tingly,which kinda scared me,cuz it had been gone for a while.I know that I kinda freaked myself out,I got a little bummed,had a good cry,talked about it with my mom and boyfriend,then was fine.

And I am very optimistic,and not depressed or anything.But do get bummed occasionally.It doesn't last more that a few hours tops.but my problem this weekend was that I feel sometimes"trapped"inside my body.Does that make sense?Like I can't get away from it(ms) so I'm wondering,how do you guys deal with this kind of stuff? I guess I was having what couuld be called a bad"ms" day... am probably rambling.Thanks guys!

I know the feeling well.....being trapped inside myself. Sometimes it's hard to get out of my own way. But, the longer I've had to deal with MS (since 2005) the easier it gets to accept. At least for me it does. Everyone has different circumstances to deal with in life. I think I've come to terms with the fact that this is my "normal". That takes a long time to do. Some folks never do. Some days it's easier to accept than others. My advice is to just take it a day at a time. It sounds like you have a good support system at home. That makes a huge difference.

A bad MS day, not like a bad hair day. Or isn't it? Let's see, you don't look good, you don't feel well, you don't want to see anyone or have anyone see you and you just want to pull the covers up over your head and go back to sleep. Hmmmmmmmmmmm, maybe they are a little bit the same, at least psychologically.

We all understand Sessa and whenever you need to ramble or grumble, this is the place.

Feel better soon..

Hi Sessa

I think it actually takes a long time to reach that point of acceptance and recognise that you can't control this disease.

I too am optimistic (after nearly 11 years and still walking and doing lots of the things I could before), but lots doesn't mean everything and I have down days too. And. while I am doing all of these things, there is the realisation that things could change at any time.

That is the worst part of MS - you have no control, and it will do what it wants to do, when it wants to do it.

It truly is a roller coaster, and you can't always get off. Take heart and remember tht you are exactly where you are supposed to be in the universe. (I paraphased that from someones profile - and I love it).

Just make sure that you listen to your body and don't stress or overwork yourself too much.

Regards

Lyn

Hi, Sessa

I agree with what the others have said. I was diagnosed about 7 years ago, and I guess I've come to terms with it as much as anybody comes to terms with a chronic illness that seems to thrive on catching you off guard!

I haven't had any new symptoms for a long time. The same old ones will wax and wane, or disappear altogether for a while. Then, if I'm stressed, or ill, or for no reason at all, BAM!

Then I do what you do: freak myself out, get a little bummed, have a good cry, talk with somebody (in "real" life or on here) and then I'm good for a while.

I've had symptoms for probably 10-12 years. I still walk (though use a cane when out and about, and a rollator when I go for walks), I still drive, I still can thread a needle, and MOST of my symptoms wouldn't be noticed by someone who doesn't know me really well.

My dad had MS for nearly 40 years, can't remember exactly. When he died a few weeks before his 80th birthday (of emphysema), he was still getting up and down stairs under his own steam, still reading, still following the stock market, and again, only people who knew him really well even realized he had MS.

I realize that this stinkin' disease can turn on a dime, but I try to focus on the better outcomes while I (try to) prepare myself for the worst. It's tricky ground, but Sessa, you've come to a good place here at NeuroTalk. We're all in this together!!

Don't beat yourself up. Its all part of the mourning process. Its hard dealing with the loss of who we used to be.
My mother had scleroderma which has a death sentence attached to it. She told me she was sitting in a doctors office and saw a 'cartoon' on the wall showing a man in boat desperately trying to bail out the water in his sinking boat. He is looking up to heaven exclaiming "God, why me!" In the next caption God booms back, "Why not you".
She said that stupid little cartoon made her really think and come to grips with the future she had to face.
Mom's attitude turned on a dime and luckily she beat the odds and lived FAR more years than she was suppose to. On a bad day, I think of the 'cartoon' story she told me so many years ago. It has actually helped me to pick myself up and get through the bad days.

How funny! Not what you are going through but I was going to post a thread this morning about something similar. I was dx in 2006 and have experienced this pattern over and over. I go through times where I feel really good and almost normal and then BAM! I get slammed down with symptoms. That slam can throw me for a loop. I get frustrated and angry and sad and all sorts of things. Last week, I had a pretty good week. This week is not starting out that way and this morning I just was having a small pity party feeling the same things you are describing - trapped in my own body and no where to run to.

So, yes, I think most of go through this. Hang in there! You're not alone.