[HarveysAngelsx3]

Nervous! today is my head MRI. I'm so ready for answers. I have been waiting for months for this day! I'm sooo nervous! I'm scared it will come back clean. I know that sounds crazy but this is the only thing that has made sense at all and I'm scared with this MRI he is basically just going to tell me I'm insane and push me to the side. I'm scared that it will come back showing that it really is MS and then I have a life long battle with no hope for fixing these problems, Then again I'm scared to death it will come back clean & then what? no explanation no hope of finding any answers any time soon. Getting him to repeat the MRI on the cervical and thoracic spine is probably not likely. But then I have nothing that explains any of it so I'm basically back to square 0. not even square 1 because at this point they will have ruled out MS, RA, Fibro, & SLE!

I don't know if anyone really understands the way I feel about this but I'm real scared. Scared that it will come back showing MS and scared that it won't. MAYBE I REALLY AM CRAZY!

[Blessings2You]

If you are crazy, then a lot of us are. That's exactly the way I felt. I had a meltdown in front of my husband, and said essentially the same as you: "I don't want MS, but I know (sob sob) there's SOMETHING wrong with me (sob sob) and the only thing left (sob sob) is that I'm (sob) CRA-A-A-Z-Y-Y-Y, waaaahhhhhh!"

Just remember that we're all right behind you and know right where you're coming from. Hang in there. Oh, and there IS hope for fixing things--not a guarantee, but there is hope!

[yeti]

Good luck Harvey! I hope you get some answers. And just because the MRI comes back negative doesn't mean you are crazy.

[azoyizes]

I agree with B2Y. I had a neuro tell me that he had a friend who was a psychiatrist and that he could refer me to him.

Just take it one step at a time. I know it's hard not to be worried, to be scared, but take it easy.

[Dejibo]

it will be over before ya know it. I hope you get some answers.

[Lynn]

I think we have all been here. Bottom line is, that the devil you know is not as scary as the one that plagues your thoughts in the dark of night when everything seems worse.

No, MS is not a good diagnosis, but there are many worse ones we could be given. My thoughts are with you, and hoping that you get something concrete that you can get to know and learn how to fight/or accept.

We are all feeling like we are crazy sometimes, and I have yet to meet a person with MS who hasn't felt (or been made to feel) like a hypochondriac at some time.

Thinking of you, as Dejibo said, it will be over in no time, and I hope it leads you to some answers - one way or the other.

Regards

Lyn

[SallyC]

Good wishes for results today, for you H. Angel(crazy lady)

[HarveysAngelsx3]

Well apparently i'm just crazy! I'm going to make an appt and tell the dr i want my pain meds refilled and give me some antidepressants or xanax & just live the sedated life i'm obviously supposed to live because according to them my mri came back normal! I'm so frustrated and depressed it's not even funny. As if my symptoms are going to just magically disappear because it came back normal! They have already checked and treated my vitamin deficiency so it can't be that! With regular treatment of b12 & vit. D my levels are within normal range so it's not that! i dont even know what to do. I wouldn't even second guess the ruling out ms if he had done a spinal mri also. But he only did the brain with & without contrast i dont even know where to turn. I think i may just have myself checked into the mental hospital i can't do this crap no more!

[SallyC]

Well now you do what the rest of us do or have done and wait it out or go to one of the MS clinics and get a 2nd opinion and an MRI of spine...LP?


We are with you..

[ANNagain]

Oh, I have been where you are more than once! Yes, "hysterical conversion reaction" when the myocolonic jerks started. I felt the same as you. I called the MS support group leader that I was supposed to meet for the first time that night and she said, "Oh, I think you need to come and talk w us." It was the best move.

I don't know what you have but see if you can see this guy or the other neuro again in 3 to 6 months so they can see any changes over time.

So many have gone through this. And the Chronic Fatigue/Fibro myalgia sufferers, too.

I'll be thinking about you today and don't you dare be embarrassed for 1 second. They just don't know YET what is wrong.

ANN