[JessieSue]

Hi everyone! I'm having a bad morning anf just really need to get this out. I have SPMS....been living with MS for 5 years. My fince lives with me, we've benn together for nearly eight years. Believe me, I am a lucky girl, I know I am. I know Dennis loves me and he takes such good care of me and is so supportive of me. Right now I'm in the midst of quite a flare, I have been on a rather steady decline, but something triggered things to just go haywire. Anyway, trying to make this shorter.....bladder problems is a constant sx with me. However, I have been waking every morning just having soaked the bed in pee for the last few days. I don't even feel I need to go. I wear adult diapers to bed......but the way my health has been lately, I'm just soaking right through those suckers too. Anyway, every morning Dennis sees me wake up, embarrassed and in tears. I tell him to be careful getting out of bed and stay close to his side because I soaked the bed again. He just grabs me and tells me he loves me. I know he does.....but how long can a 28 year old man be happy this way? He is a personal trainer at a gym for pete's sake! A gym filled with beautiful people! I mean, for fun these people just take off running.....and there isn't even an icecream truck in sight!
He loves me, I know this, and he's my world. I just worry about what the future holds I try not to, but this is just one of those days........Thanks everyone for listening!~~~Jess