Scrap,

I don't have MS, but I really like the folks on here, and I have friends with MS, so I read here. I have MG, and that can be a total bummer as well...

I remember when I was first diagnosed, and the only experience I'd had with MG were really sad stories. I was terrified, as I had a 1 year old at the time and wondered if I'd even get to raise her. She's 15 now, and we are both doing OK. I would suggest, based on my experience and the experiences of many others, to just let those feelings of terror go through you, and just right on out the other side. One thing I've learned is when I'm feeling really scared and panicky, kind of "step away" in your mind and simply observe your feelings. I will think, "Oh, my heart is really pounding," or "my breath is really short because I am scared." Simply acknowledging to myself that I feel bad really helps me. Give it a try!

I am also sorry for the loss of your father. Try and take care of yourself and take any support you can get. You need it right now.