Ok, I know with all the posts I've made lately you know what a horrible time I have been having. Well, I was going to back out of my bf wedding, but I have decided against it. I decided to go ahead with it. Id already bought the dress and shoes and the wedding is in a few days now, so its too close to back out now. Well, my relapse is still going strong and no signs of letting go anytime soon. Its liking to play tricks with me tho. One day I can talk fine, the next im all slurring and cant find my words. I see the neuro the 24th, just a few days after we get back. Im just afraid of looking drunk infront of a lot of folks I don't know. I guess the nerves are just kicking in now, and I cant even be excited to see my grand babies.