And the pain meds aren't working. Lower back pain is making it hard to walk and now I have pain in my arch in my foot which is spreading up my into my leg which is making walking almost impossible. Doc is on vaca and nurse told me to go to ER but I have no insurance and Im still paying off my last ER trip!! Seems my prayers aren't being heard to give me relief.

I just want to fall asleep and not wake up. The pain will stop then! And I won't be a burden to my family any more. My oldest daughter is not speaking to me again appearantly because I talk too much! True story, she says she doesn't have that much time for me. I asked her for 5 minutes and she wouldn't even call me for that. My other dd says she has to make sure she has at least a good 30-45 to talk to me cuz I talk and talk and talk.....

I have 3 kids and not one of them called me to wish me a happy turkey day. I can feel the MS progression worsening. They all know that. Apperantly, a chronically ill mother is no big deal to them. So, between the physical pain and the emotional pain, Im just done. I look at all the pills I take and get tempted sometimes. I don't know what stops me. I just know with all the pain Im in, Im so tired of crying myself to sleep at night waiting for the meds to kick in, and when I do finally fall asleep, then I will have to roll over or something and it'll wake me up and I'll be screaming in pain again. Im so tired of it. Come to find out, my medicare doesn't kick in til April, not February like I thought. Just keeps getting better.