[Chris]

Hello you lot,
I know I've been quite "up" lately, as I recently found out I was pregnant again. My husband and I have been through so much in the last few years with trying to become pregnant, IVF, becoming pregnant, and then losing the pregnancy.

As many of you know, I recently found out I was pregnant again (by IVF), and we were thrilled. Each and everytime I become pregnant, everything seems fine, and they tell me they don't see any reason why I shouldn't be able to maintain a pregnancy. We've been tested, prodded, and poked to the point that we feel like lab rats.

I had an appointment with a high risk peri-natologist that works in hospital where the group I work with delivers. All seemed well (I was scheduled for a 4-D Ultrasounds later on this month). Earlier in the week, whilst at work, I experienced some mild bleeding and hadn't been having as much nausea as I'd been experiencing over the last month or so.

Lo and behold, we did an ultrasound at work the other day, and I have a "blighted ovum". I'm no longer pregnant, and there is no explanation for the loss of this pregnancy. There comes a point where we have to say enough with the IVF, and decide it's just the baby we want. Both of us have said it's not about giving birth, but about becoming parents.

BUT....I'm so disappointed. I feel like a failure for some reason. I work with pregnant women all day, and that certainly may be contributing to my feelings of loss. My Neurologist doesn't seem to think it has anything to do with the MS, and honestly, I don't either. I've seen plenty of women with auto-immune diseases deliver perfectly healthy babies after having perfectly normal pregnancies.

Has anyone on here had problems holding onto a pregnancy? Has anyone on here adopted? I'm concerned that our chances of getting a newborn are going to be decreased due to my MS.

Thanks. I don't mean to bring you down with our petty problem in the grand scheme of things, but you lot are the only ones I know would understand.

Thanks for listening,
Chris