What great advice from you all. Kebsa, you said "just remember this is not something you can power through if you try hard enough"... this SO hit home for me. Talk about a reality check. This "barrel on through it" mentality is exactly what I have been doing for the last few years. When I look back on it, now I see how it has just gotten worse and worse. I guess, I have some major readjustments to do, right now.

I am just so wrung out right now that I can stay on. But EVERYONE I feel I've found new friends who really understand. I humbly thank you all. Wish I felt like chatting with each of you. I'll say a prayer for you and will welcome the same. I feel guilty even making this thread "all about me". That's just not who I am... I send you all my blessings. I'll check back another time. Thank you.