[Dejibo]

Its one of the questions that I always get asked as part of my evaluation in the big girl neuro clinic. Do you feel that people have been more critical of you this month? Do you feel that you have been more critical of people this month? Do you feel that you are liked? Do you feel like people are talking about you in a negative way? Do you feel like you have friends?

I always thought those questions were wild and out of place till the last flare I went thru. I felt like folks were being hyper critical of me. I felt like they didnt trust me or believe me when I said things. I felt like I had to work harder to explain myself.

Since the flare subsided, its been much less but I still have snippets of distrust or feeling distrusted. Stupid things that make no sense, and have no connection to history, but yet...there it is. I feel like people are judging me. This is silly, because I am not a girl who normally cares or is flattened by what others think. Everyone is entitled to their opinion and while I may not always agree with you, it doesnt mean we cant be friends, or talk it over.

This has truly been different for me. Does anyone else have periods in their disease where they feel like others are judging them? just dont like them? Wish they would just go away? Like one message board I was at, I posted a nice thread that had some questions and NOT ONE person responded (its not a thank you place) it just sat. Now I know that probably folks didnt have an answer. They didnt know me since I was new there, and they were probably waiting on someone more knowledgeable to speak up, but after a full week. I deleted my post, and went away. I saw everyone chatting it up in posts all around mine, but not one stopped to say hello, welcome, cant help you but...

Why does this happen? I am not used to it, and dont want to wear it. How do you get over it? or am I the only one?