It sounds like you are going through a very difficult time, Thumper.

I remember saying that I just felt like "a non-gendered ...(blah, blah)... lump of pain" for a period of about 2 years, and by that point, I really couldn't see a light at the end of the tunnel. I did find the right drug for me though, and things turned around enough that I could see living beyond only the minute I was trying to struggle through.

It is going to take time to adapt to your new reality, and to find what works for you as an individual. Just keep taking one step forward until you find that, and get through this difficult transition.



Cherie