Ahhh Pete? i am a guy with MS and talk all the time on here, and get a lot of help guidance and advise, this is a really great site. stop being so hard on yourself, folks here are fantastic helpful, kind and fun to know. I think if you give it a chance and visit more often you might find this site to be a wonderful blessing, i hope you are able to visit more and chat more, that is a major key to it all networking, feel better, hang in there and dont hesitate to yak if ya want i am on here 20 out of 24 hrs a day lately