Hello my name is Ariel and I'm just going to get straight to the story
After blacking out drunk one night of very heavy drinking I woke up the next morning with feelings of derealization and in total confusion it was if I lost connection with all my friends and forgot who they were this feeling lasted for 4 weeks on and off I thought I was going crazy. After that was gone I had very bad anxiety and a complete change in personality I didn't like leaving my house and pretty much withdrew from my social life even after itrying I just have not felt like nearly the same person as I was before the mris eeg's and and ct's were all clean . Its been two months now since that night and the symptoms are the following: 1) I feel emotionally numb 2) I can't express any of my thoughts 3) some headaches that mostly went away 4) I always feel like somethings off 5) my brain always has a fog over it 5) very poor memory of when events happened and how they happened 6) no track of time 7) hard time sleeping with very vivid and bizarre dreams when I do sleep 8) no appetite sometimes because of nausea 8) I can't process my thoughts like there's no emotion behind any of them 9) its almost impossible to learn new things 10) every time I try to talk about these things I begin to cry 11) I feel like I'm dreaming all day and these are some of the few that don't even come out right because of my inability to express my thoughts in an organized manner. After seeing a neurologist a psychiatrist and a therapist they agreed that I have some sort of chemical imbalance or received a bump on the head that night causing post concussive symptoms or the alcohol itself caused a temporary brain injury. I stopped going to school because I'm so overwhelmed from what I can't do that I used to grasp so easily. Everybody tells me its temporary and that everythings ok but I can't stop thinking that its something more and I'm constantly looking for answers on the internet which causes me more anxiety that I can't feel because I'm so numb. I don't want to live like this I've thought about suicide daily and I just want to be back to my normal self. I'm losing my friends and might not graduate due to this if anyone has any helpful suggestions about what might be going on I would greatly appreciate it

Thank you for your help

I'm so, soooo sorry you are going through this. Many of the things you describe are similar to what my husband went through this year. It is believed he has been suffering from post concussion syndrom in combination with other psychological issues. It's a very scary, sad situation, but he is SO MUCH BETTER now. When things with him were at their most acute I never dreamed he would get better, but he really is better now. It's like a miracle.

So, please hold out hope that this will improve and things will get better and you won't always be like this.

I always say "knowledge is power" but "Dr. Google is NOT our friend!" Hahaha. It's very difficult to do research about medical conditions on the internet and know what is real and what is not. I recommend being very picky about what you read. In my opinion, the best resources for facts are peer-reviewed research published in national trade journals and the best for support are through anecdotal research like you will find in support groups like this. So, you get your hard data from formal research, but get your day-to-day living from places like this. And I ignore the rest.

There are some great support and research sites linked to in this group, so check those out! MayoClinic.com usually gives me a clear idea about what various conditions are and then I browse through the resources listed at the end of their articles for more nitty-gritty details.

Have you told you psychiatrist or psychologist that you are having thoughts of suicide? I really think you should. A change in medication or a new medication could help you. As problematic as all the symptoms you list are, I'm most concerned about your suicidal thoughts. Please contact your psychiatrist and therapist about this NOW. I'm sure they have an after-hours number...

Best wishes,
Rebecca

thank you rebecca for the positive support its always helpful. I've let them know about everything that's going on the internet is my biggest downfall I seem to diagnose myself with whatever I read but I have come to learn that every case is different and to trust the professionals. I'm sorry to hear about your husband and I'm glad things are better I can imagine how difficult it is because I can see my family struggle because of this. thanks again Becky ill look into more reliable sources

It's not fun. I had a car accident in june. It was a head on collission. My head hit the windshield and I was out for around thirty minutes. I still have scars on my forehead, cheek and above my eyebrow. Had broken ribs as well.

The body has healed but I am really struggling. Subsequently to the accident I kept getting into disagreements with people. It wasn't until somebody mentioned it that I realized there was a pattern to it. It's like my normal personality has been hijacked. It's me but it's certainly not the me I am used to. I am getting better but I still feel that my way of relating to others has been altered.

The other issue is this constant depression, lethargy and lack of motivation that I cannot seem to shake. I do not feel functional. I do think of suicide quite often as way of escape. And yet, I am one of those people who would never do such a thing, so I can't figure out why my mind keeps going there.

i read your story and it helped me feel a bit better just to know I am not the only one dealing with these issues. I hope my story can do the same.

I keep hearing it will pass. I wish it would hurry up and do so.