[ashby.]

Its 2:30, and my mind is racing.

I feel like as soon as the sun goes down, in in a black hole, drowning in self doubt and pity.

Everyone tells about their PCS being coordination, headaches, confusion, sensitivity to light, ect. But I came to this site not for those but because I feel like a different person completely. There's no point to anything anymore. I hats this.

I'm tired, depressed, and confused.

Can anyone help me?

[Koala77]

I'm so sorry that you feel like this, especially as it's the middle of the night and therefore a quiet time here on NeuroTalk. We do have a chat room that we share with our sister site, Psych Central, but unfortuntely new members don't have immediate access. The reason for this is to prevent spammers getting in there. Once you've made a few more posts with us, you will be able to access the rooms should you wish.

Hopefully some-one will be along soon, but if not... you might want to check out our sister site, just because there's a better chance that some-one might be around to help you through this time of your night.

Here's the link: http://forums.psychcentral.com/

If you do decide to post over there, you would need to register again though, as we are quite separate from each other.

[Darlene]

ashby,

Hello and welcome each of you to NeuroTalk. Happy to see you have come to be with us. Here are a great number of dear friends to listen when you are in need of ears. Please let us know how we can help you out. You will find out we are supportive and relaxing place.

Again welcome, looking forward to seeing you around. My thoughts and prayers are with you.

Darlene

[Theta Z]

Welcome, ashby.
Here is the Post-Concussion Syndrome link for you. Lots of helpful folks on there daily. I highly recommend to your attention.
Sincerely,
Theta
http://neurotalk.psychcentral.com/forum92.html

[lucyjasp]

Originally Posted by ashby.

Its 2:30, and my mind is racing.

I feel like as soon as the sun goes down, in in a black hole, drowning in self doubt and pity.

Everyone tells about their PCS being coordination, headaches, confusion, sensitivity to light, ect. But I came to this site not for those but because I feel like a different person completely. There's no point to anything anymore. I hats this.

I'm tired, depressed, and confused.

Can anyone help me?

First of All, you aren't the only one.

I've been depressed for years and I still don't know the answer as to what's happening. I do want help, but i also want to succeed on my own.... Anyway, I know that people would always say "exercise, do activities, get out of the house, yada yada" Those all DO work I suppose, but not in the long run. I suppose the best thing at this moment is to talk to someone who relates. They sympathize because they know. And when you know that THEY know, you feel a little less out of place. It won't cure what you're feeling, but it's a good start. I hope I was of help.

[ashby.]

Originally Posted by lucyjasp

First of All, you aren't the only one.

I've been depressed for years and I still don't know the answer as to what's happening. I do want help, but i also want to succeed on my own.... Anyway, I know that people would always say "exercise, do activities, get out of the house, yada yada" Those all DO work I suppose, but not in the long run. I suppose the best thing at this moment is to talk to someone who relates. They sympathize because they know. And when you know that THEY know, you feel a little less out of place. It won't cure what you're feeling, but it's a good start. I hope I was of help.

Again im up, and cant sleep. I dont really have anyone to talk to, when ever i try to press the issue with my mom or anyone else, they either cant relate, dont believe me or think im being melodramatic. yes, im only 16 and have a wonderful life, why cant i just be happy.

Its indescribable, the the way the deppression creeps up, ill be great all day, playing laughing having a good time, then one thought will set it off. The blanket of grief seems to comeout of hiding and smother me. Im sure yoy know the panic i mean, that hot tingling panic that fills you to you throw up. Theres no way to make someone thats never felt like this understand. Its like im drowning.

[2much4u]

Yes, I have that feeling too; its such an empty helpless feeling!...I usually feel this first thing upon awakening in the morning; its like i hate myself it is a horrible hollow feeling; the reason i prob feel this in the morning is because i force myself to fall asleep; all these add up to the same thing; night terrors.
It might be useful to start documenting these wakeups and trying to decipher it meaning, but the end result is youll prob be awake longer and more stressed imagining something you really can figure out...the best thing prob is to find a routine that makes you tired and have ways of putting yourself back to sleep immed upon waking, my best trick upon waking in the middle of the night is close my eyes again quickly to fall back to sleep before i wake up too much, lol doesnt alway work with kids and dog and cats

Originally Posted by ashby.

Its 2:30, and my mind is racing.

I feel like as soon as the sun goes down, in in a black hole, drowning in self doubt and pity.

Everyone tells about their PCS being coordination, headaches, confusion, sensitivity to light, ect. But I came to this site not for those but because I feel like a different person completely. There's no point to anything anymore. I hats this.

I'm tired, depressed, and confused.

Can anyone help me?

[rmschaver]

I am unsure how many PCS suffers feel this way. But I have said almost since the day of my injury I don't feel like my self. I had some depression with it and it still occurs but not as frequently. Have you considered seeing a psychiatrist?

At first I was afraid I was losing myself and in a way I have. But there is still alot about me that is the same. Initially I refused to accept I was as injured as badly as I am and demanded from the world that I be cured, NOW. I think that was denial now I try to take one day at a time. Sorry I know thats not what you want hear.

You recognize somethings not right and that is important, be sure to vocalize this to the Dr's repeatedly and make sure they write it down. For some I think that feeling passes with time. For me I still don't feel like myself. I try to be positive,"ARGHHH" and do what is asked to heal. I have never been good at waiting and have had a very active life until my injury. I am still adjusting but in some ways I think the change was OK.

Please do not be to hard on yourself you have suffered a major injury. You are spot on my wife has been great but she still has the moments where she does not get it. For me thats OK because for her to really get it would mean she would have to live thru it. I love her dearly and would not wish this on anyone. This forum has been a lifesaver for me. I know here I will be heard and understood.

What tomorrow brings no one can say but that does not mean it will be void of meaning, excitement, adventure but it will most likely be different than what you are used to. Your life is not over and can still be rich and full. Give yourself sometime to heal.

Hope you feel better