[mennayriu]

Hello, everyone. I suppose I'm just looking for like-folks to talk to. I was diagnosed as Obsessive-Compulsive many years ago and currently my psychologist is looking into some sort of mood disorder. I am a HUGE packrat of just about anything and everything...part of it is attachment and not wanting to throw things away and part of it is that there is SO much stuff and it makes me anxious that I can't organize it all in the time it would take a normal person because i'm so particular about the way things have to be organised. I'm a compulsive hand-washer, to the point where my hands are chapped nearly the entire year. I constantly do things without thinking about them, such as locking the doors every time i go out OR in, which drives other people in the house crazy and then at night even though i know i lock them subconsciously, checking them over and over and I can't sleep without knowing they are locked. I'm always fearful that I didn't unplug something that may catch fire or turn off things like my curling iron to the point where i'll turn around half way to work to go make sure it's off/unplugged. I'm always also disinfecting things. I have four cans of lysol throughout the house, baby wipes, disinfectant wipes, and anti-bacterial gel. It's just gotten to the point, lately, where with added stress at work and home, I finally had to go see someone because I feel myself losing control over my temper and have had numerous outbursts of crying and/or screaming, cursing, hitting things, kicking things, etc. I also have lost 25 lbs and am not sleeping correctly. I'm on prozac but it's not seeming to be helping anymore and i have sores on my head for the past three months that i itch at unknowingly when i get anxious. I think that somewhat covers it. That's my life =-/ Sorry for spewing and nice to meet you all.

[Kitty]

Hi and welcome to NeuroTalk! I've posted the link to the Anxiety and OCD Forum. Take a look around and feel free to join in on any forum that you like. There's lots of really great folks here!

http://neurotalk.psychcentral.com/forum50.html

[Koala77]

Welcome from me as well Mennayriu.

I'm sorry to hear about the stresses you've been under, but you're sure to meet some compassionate people here on NeuroTalk who'll understand and support you.

Welcome again. It's good to have you with us.

[mennayriu]

Thank you for the welcomes and sorry for the huge book I wrote there. I'm very highly-anxious today for some reason.

[MooseasaurusRex]

menn!

Enjoyed talking to you in chat. But let me make it official...

One big, warm, tight, hug, handshake and howdy, moose-size type welcome to the site. This place is amazing!

Lots and lots of good people here. And tons of information. Sorry about the problems you are facing, but keep in mind;

You are not alone.
You are one of us.
And we are here to help.

[AfterMyNap]

Hi, Menna! Welcome to NeuroTalk!

I remember you from chat last night, sorry I faded out, I think I nodded off.

[DM]

Hello mennay and Welcome to NeuroTalk. I'm glad you told us your story. You'll find that the members here are very understanding and helpful. I have a little OCD myself, so don't feel like your'e an outcast or different around here. We are all here for one reason or another and OCD is a real disorder and it's aggravating and emotionally painful for many people.

My brother is a hand washer and if we are together and he disappears, I know he is off finding a bathroom to wash his hands. I'm a checker, but am not organized or a hoarder. There are so many different degrees of OCD.

There is a book written by Dr Jeffrey Schwartz that is helpful. I can't remember the name of it, but saw him on Oprah yrs ago.

Thanks for opening up and I am glad you found us.

[Idealist]

I am very pleased to meet you! This may sound weird, but what you described reminds me very much of my mother-in-law, who has lived with us for the past 18 years. So I feel that I understand at least a part of what you are going through. I'm no expert, but if you ever just feel like talking things through, I or many others here are more than ready and willing! Hopefully I will see more of you here. Good luck and best wishes!

Idealist

[BlackRoze]

Originally Posted by mennayriu

Hello, everyone. I suppose I'm just looking for like-folks to talk to. I was diagnosed as Obsessive-Compulsive many years ago and currently my psychologist is looking into some sort of mood disorder. I am a HUGE packrat of just about anything and everything...part of it is attachment and not wanting to throw things away and part of it is that there is SO much stuff and it makes me anxious that I can't organize it all in the time it would take a normal person because i'm so particular about the way things have to be organised. I'm a compulsive hand-washer, to the point where my hands are chapped nearly the entire year. I constantly do things without thinking about them, such as locking the doors every time i go out OR in, which drives other people in the house crazy and then at night even though i know i lock them subconsciously, checking them over and over and I can't sleep without knowing they are locked. I'm always fearful that I didn't unplug something that may catch fire or turn off things like my curling iron to the point where i'll turn around half way to work to go make sure it's off/unplugged. I'm always also disinfecting things. I have four cans of lysol throughout the house, baby wipes, disinfectant wipes, and anti-bacterial gel. It's just gotten to the point, lately, where with added stress at work and home, I finally had to go see someone because I feel myself losing control over my temper and have had numerous outbursts of crying and/or screaming, cursing, hitting things, kicking things, etc. I also have lost 25 lbs and am not sleeping correctly. I'm on prozac but it's not seeming to be helping anymore and i have sores on my head for the past three months that i itch at unknowingly when i get anxious. I think that somewhat covers it. That's my life =-/ Sorry for spewing and nice to meet you all.

welcome to the group. We all have bad days... But it helps when you have people like your self and other to get you threw them. But I'm kinda Concerned about your weight lose and itchy sores. it is amazing what Lyme disease can do the body. in some ways you kind sound like myself before I was diagnosed. this disease can play with your mind as well as your mood swings. I hope you have been tested for Lyme disease, if not I would request one from your physician.

Wish you well, Roze
by the way hugs are always a good thing, and welcomed