[H1N1Guy]

I admit.....i've had neuropathy for five years now and i'm still angry. It seems I become even more so as the years go by. How can I ever move past the anger I feel about having this disease? I'm getting deep tonight but its spreading and i'm stuck. I was sitting at work today when I had a bad flare and I asked myself, "How much longer can i keep doing this?" I don't really cope well with pain and it makes me quite hateful to others, though I try not to let it. It has made a significant progression in the past few months, more progression than has been had in years.

I have come up with all sorts of ways to treat my physical symptoms, but mentally I am hanging on by a tread (not in a suicidal way or anything), but recently I have been punching things.

In my mind complete acceptance is admission of defeat.

The truth is I really thought I had this thing at bay and now that it is progressing again I am having a very hard time dealing with it.

At any rate, it seems that many members here have been able to cope in a very admirable way. Any secrets? I'm just not getting it.