Hey guys. Nice to see you
So to clarify, I was on oxycodone, but it stopped working..so he switched me to the patch, and said to just taper off the rest of my oxys. It wasn't planned out well. Now I'm relying on an old script of morphine for the breakthrough and withdrawals. Clearly I meed more than the 25 mcg fentanyl patch. It all sucks so bad. My mind is not clear , and there are so many ups and downs.Honnestly, I suffered with severe depression before I had pain, and now ..it is a daily battle with very bad thoughts. I also have anxiety and a personality disorder which make me very unstable to begin with.
My pain doc is away for the week, and my GP does not prescribe opiates. Also, my pain doc does not believe in breakthrough meds. He thinks people should meditate.argh!!!

Thanks for the link. I am part of that forum . I am not going off everything, just the switch from oxy to fentanyl. Some doctors are now saying that opiates cause more pain and are trying to get everyone off them. But now I am hooked, and there is no alternative besides lyrica. * screams and cries*
I hear the disability ( here it is called ODSP), is not easy to obtain. I have been warned that it may take up to 2 years and a few tries.
Honestly, by that time if I am still so disabled, gosh...I don't even know what to say there.
I should have applied 2.5 yrs ago when this started. I didn't get a proper diagnosis until last month though. Its all a big catch 22. Too sick to work, but have to to live. Can only do so much to help myself with limited funds. I'm 29 and living off hand outs to make rent. I couldn't finish school because I couldn't pay.
I am just stuck in a nightmare that never ends. I am not usually the type to pray, but I need a miracle. I am just not getting anywhere but deeper into despair.

Thanks for the support. I'm grateful to vent and have people that understand completely ( except maybe the mental illness)