You are inspiration to all of us. You have such a fighting spirit! hang on to that!
It wasn't hard to quit the smoking...ha ha ha... I did out on the east coast when I had a 1,400 mile drive home cold turkey. I cussed and carried on all the way home. Even my very loving cat who loved the car rides, would not sit on my lap. I just used that anger toward myself, as I had gotten into the fix I was in. Mine was cold habbit, not anxiety. I know it is hard to do.
Keep pushing forward. Glad money isn't so tight. That makes alot of difference in our quality of life. ginnie