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Originally Posted by featherbullet
After 2.5 years of living hell, at 29 years of age .. After maxing out on narcotics and taking as much lyrica as I can function on, all the right supplements ,
Rest, time, tests , Losing relationships, friendships,putting immense strain on my family , being denied disability , and being terribly broke ...
I am out of hope , faith, and a will to carry on
I got the diagnosis of peripheral neuropathy.. But with no known cause.
In the morning, my hands are numb.. All of my muscles hurt and burn when I stretch. Burning from neck to feet .. That is relentless. I have tried all the lotions and potions. I can't just sit at home with ice packs all over me forever.
I'm not even 30.. Single , no profession because I had to drop out of school..
There is no hope. I have up on prayer ages ago.
Nobody wants to be around a whiny , negative person who is never happy and always in 24/7 pain.
I'm done. I'm just done. No desire to torture myself any longer.
Has anyone else ever dealt with crippling depression because of this horrendous disease?
Everyone I see on here is older .. No offence .. But my best years were still to come.
I had to get this out. Thanks for listening.
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I hear you. I get it. You aren't alone. I quit smoking and hit my weight loss goal of 40 pounds last August and then developed SFPN in September. I felt robbed and cheated. Why did I do all this good stuff for myself to have this happen? You are not alone!!
My depression truly knocked me on my butt when I went off the Neurontin. I scared the heck out of my MD. I went on Cymbalta. It took about 2 weeks, but I am better. I have hope. Re: the ice packs. Do you have access to a swimming pool? I get total relief in the water and positive exercise too. I forget my illness when swimming. Maybe this can help you too. Also, yes, its pricey, but I use a cooling pad to sleep from a company called chili technology. Bless whomever invented this. It helps with my back burning.
Love yourself. Respect yourself. Be kind to yourself.
05-03-2013, 07:01 PM
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