After reading Hopeful's last post, I feel selfish posting this since she is so concerned with how her family feels and all I want to do is end this. Don't worry would kent do anything that selfish because of the impact it would have on my 3 sweet boys. But I couldn't even get out of bed yesterday and here I am again today. The pain and weakness in my legs is unbearable and I am so sick to my stomach that I am unable to eat. All I have been doing is sleeping and taking tramadol (which a week ago I was not even taking) and zofran. And yes the tramadol makes the nausea worse but it is between that or the awful pain. The max I took is 100mg.

I just do not undertstand. Why me? Why us? When will this nightmare end? I find myself looking around at other people thinking I would o anything to be them-to be normal and healthy. Meanwhile my prayers go unanswered. As hopeful said there has got to be a reason for this....

For now what do I do??? I have to at least be able to function