Hi Debi,
Im sorry to hear that you haven't reached any of your goals.

My family also suggested about a year ago that I see a therapist that deals with chronic pain patients. Fortunately, I found I really good one. She actually ran chronic pain groups for years. She does mediation tapes for pain for me etc.

She also helps me when I feel like I've lost my entire life. All or nothing thinking. She is good at listening to me vent too. I tell her things about how I feel emotionally and physically that I don't want to tell my family and friends.

I'm sure by now you are realizing that I'm suggesting you give it a try. It really does help me.