Thanks again guys. I agree about the people on this forum are such great inspiration of hope. I will say many psychs and I know there are some good but many have issues of there own that are more then just the normal problems. When I went ip for mental issues many of the therapists were recovered addicts,etc. You think they would have more compassion. I think your right that you have to keep fighting through to more places for help. I wonder how you all deal with the unknown? Everyday since my symptoms like others have spread or go up and down so much I fear what will be next. Its so scary and makes me so confused on choices. Its so lonely being like this.