Thanks all. I think that some docs just really need to stop thinking there the best or like a star. I can't tell you how many times I have heard but he is the director or chairman. Like yes and that means what to me?I'm not expecting a friend but just a little compassion. You know it would take 5 minutes to really explain and that would make one feel so safe. You know with eating disorder recovery the doctors try to always acknowledge your feelings. For ex if they were treating pain they would say I hear what your saying and your fears but I feel the fentnyl patch for ex would not work because and then say why. Not just No with no plan. You as a patient feel you have a voice and are heard and not alone. I really feel in treatment it needs to be a team. For many years with my disorder it was there way or the highway and I remained ill. Not until I was included and we worked as a team did I recover. I think it is the same for pain.
Mrs D I don't think its from the med cause I have a sore too like a canker sore on my eye lid underneath and I am going off cymbalta though.
I do agree about the man vs women. I also feel age and whether that be young like me or maybe older getting similar treatment.
Dakota I'm sorry your down. I think that when you feel depressed and want to hide is when you need to come out and reach out for help. I understand how hard it is but keeping your feelings in does not help. Please reach out cause were all here for you too. I will say I agree about being a participant in treatment but it does seem like with these docs it is there way only. The ucla doc said only the scs too for me or he didn't want to see me again. Thats fine cause if I chose to do the scs it would not be with him.
Many thanks and I will keep you updated. For now back to the eye doc tomorrow and for another fun thing a dentist sometime soon cause I have a cavity or tooth ache. People I'm falling apart. I guess everything is down hill after 29. If I don't joke I'll cry. Many hugs

it's called 'MAINTENANCE!'...
Just sort of dream about using your cane 'dangerously' in some docs' offices? Dream about it, don't really DO it! It is therapeutic just to do the 'imagining'. - j