Janaw, I sympathize with your situation. I'm currently supported partially by disability and work 2 days a week. My husband used to do insurance work and he has warned me over and over that once I'm on disability, they will hound me to death. I'm also 52 and am scared to death of finding myself cut off from disability and looking for work--especially in these economic times. The stress of the workplace is a killer, but I do think you should talk to a counselor or a good friend just to sort out your thoughts, and be very very clear about what you can accomplish by staying or by leaving your work. I'm currently doing that myself and it is helping me. If your doctor listens, have the same conversation with them because, ultimately, you will need their medical support for disability. They may not be too supportive if you complain about office politics--keep it medical. Best of luck to you.