[Junie]

Christmas is over for us forever as our beloved furbaby Blue died in Hubby's arms on X-mas night. He was 12-13 and hubby wanted him to die with the person that he loved most (hubby) and not in a cold scary place and I watched my big marine husband hold his baby in his arms for over 6 hours as he slipped away. I made sure he did not suffer (disabled nurse here) and I am sure many don't agree but we knew this little guy wanted his daddy with him and I was shocked to see this burly ex marine cry a river of tears(6 hours worth) while his best friend left this world. We tried over and over to put him in is daddy's bed and he used the last of his strength to crawl to him and hubby did not think he could do it but in a way it helped the both of them say goodbye. I knew he was running short on time and hubby stayed in denial until the last minute...this dog was OCD about eating metal and I am shocked he lasted this long....He ate fish hooks, nails, you name it and we had surgery after surgery to remove it until it became obvious he would not stop and we could not spend 500 a week on surgery so if it was not old age then it was likely a punctured colon. By the time we knew he was sick it was too late. I am going to give hubby a little time to heal and then I am going to present him with a white mini schnauzer (male of course) and hope it will help him heal and move on. I have 2 females that helps me more then any med in the world get through this miserable life I am stuck with and I believe in pet therapy. Hubby has terminal heart disease and I have seen how our dogs help the both of us, its just so damm hard to have to let them go. Our Golden we had for 11 years killed our Thanksgiving back in the 90's when some terrible people poisoned him. I don't allow mine to leave their fenced area off my room with a doggy door. I just wonder how long I will see the little white ghost in my house...he was hubby's dog but we all loved him. I am still crying. Hubby placed him next to our Golden at 2am Xmas night. It feels like I lost a child and a lot of people don't understand that but we treat our little ones like our kids. I miss you Blue!