Does anyone feel alone? I am sure we all do...........I fell about a week ago out of my wheelchair. The pain and swelling is still as bad at least its the foot with my 4yr cast on. The feing alone is running out of money,having a child to support getting money from my exhusbamd but I finally finished the rest of my devorce property issues and I got the house and my what is left of my settlement and my new van and BILLS with no support. SUPPORT WITH FEELING OKAY I have been dating this great man that moved out of state me and my son was suppost to go there after court we had any disagreement and for the first time I havent talked to him in a week usually it was everyday. He said he doesnt have the answers to what I dont know I told him there isnt any and if he wasnt sure or couldnt deal with this tell me not 9 months later and we are best friends on top of that I feel like I lose ny bestfriend I told him that I wsnt going to call him I was going to wait intil he decided he called the next day we talked he was going to call me back that night I havent heard from him I havent called I am trying to understand Im dealing with the pain of RSD other medical issues Im 102 lbs trying to keep that on. Trying to be a teens mom live in a chair dont want this house, I dont or need someone to fix me but have no friends but people on my PC I feel like I lost my one and only dear best love and friend that showed me and was there to help me feel like I can do somethings with all in one moment I cant have help from my family and I feel alone at 39 yrs old I dont want to be alone the rest of my life and what about my son He has his life ahead of him he needs that. I want him to have that. This RSD isnt fair I didnt do anything WHY I guess its a depression day................... Karen(rsd kitti)

Hi RSD Kittie/Karen--I was wondering how you were doing after your nasty fall.

Karen, please don't feel alone in your situation. A LOT of people do not understand the pain, the challenges and the difficulties that RSD has created in our lives..let alone a lot of men. Some men (not ALL), just have a vry difficult time with "problems they can't fix"...it is just as frustrating for THEM as it is for you!

But, you know what? This guy TRIED--he spent the time to get to know you, and even though he wasn't able to deal with the RSD issues--that does NOT mean that there isn't someone out there who CAN.

I remeber something that you said that your doctor told you "It takes a very special person"--. You are still young, you a bright, you are TENACIOUS!! I mean, look at what you have been through--RSD, being in the darned wheelchair, going through a divorce, raising a teenager!! There are MANY MANY people out there, Karen who have NO MEDICAL ISSUES--and they just crumble!!!

You should be VERY PROUD OF YOURSELF!!! Yes, it is DIFFICULT without a significant other to support you and assist you, BUT YOU ARE DOING IT!!
I am by NO means trivializing your situation, Karen, but it seems to be that you really "have what it takes", you just have lost confidence in yourself because of the situation with your boyfriend.

BUT, Karen, neither your BOYFRIEND OR RSD DEFINES YOU! What is in your HEART and SOUL is what defines you--the RSD is just a "challenge", for lack of a better way to express it. We need to hace FAITH in OURSELVES, Karen--then, OTHERS, who REALLY COUNT, will RESPECT and ADMIRE us for that.

What are your interests, Karen? ALL of them--even if they are difficult or darn-near impossible for you to do at this time? Maybe there is a way to figure out some way for you to get out of the house a little more, now that the weather is better. Just an idea, but I would like to know--we might have a LOT of interests in common! And, maybe others of the Forum can come up with some pretty creative things as well!

I like art, and although drawing detailed things is a little difficult, I like to dry flowers and then arrange them and glue them down on paper, and use inexpensive frames to frame them. maybe you and your Son could get out for a bit, and try picking some flowers (Legally!!!!!). Or, maybe your son could bring you some back. All you really need to do is put them between paper-towels and put some heavy books on them, and in a couple of weeks, they will be dry. There is a way you can do it in the micro-wave, but I haven't tried it yet..maybe you can look it up on the web! If this interests you, and you DO find out how to nuke them, could you let me know? I would like to give it a try!

For me, it helps get my mind off the RSD, and allows me to still be "artistic"--after all "beauty is in the eye of the beholder", so I really don't CARE what someone else thinks about my art-work.

Well, anyhow, Karen--you have been through a LOT, but you are still SURVIVING. Not too many people in your situation could say that!

More later, but I will waitfor your response, ok?

HANG IN THERE! On this Forum-you are NOT ALONE!!

Most Sincerely,

Brokenwings

Hi Karen. Hope you're feeling a little better. I was so impressed when I read your story. To be a divorced parent is difficult under any circumstance but to do it with rsd is an amazing task....but you ARE doing it and should be so proud of yourself. Have you tried a scooter instead of a wheelchair? I find for myself that they are easier to use and more difficult to fall out of. Just a suggestion. Hope it helps. Please let us know how you are doing.

I think Brokenwing said it just right to you.

I am always amazed by people who go through disabilities, divorce and raising children on their own. You are doing it and you have a great son to prove it.

I was blessed with a husband that spoiled me even though he was disabled also and my family and friends have been there for me.

Losing Bill though lets me know what kind of place you are in. I think even losing a mate by divorce or a relationship is very hard also.

I am taking the approach that I won't ever get married again because I will not find anyone like Bill. At times he was a pain in my butt but most of the time I was a pain in his. LOL

Hang in there, you will find someone one of these days. As you said, you are young and there are some good men out there that will except you for who you are.

I hope you start seeing some better days soon.
Ada

Karen,
Even in your darkest hour, the times when you feel so alone and lost and the tears don't stop, remember you can reach out to people. Those people who are strong, loving and understanding will be your best support. There are people who can't handle RSD, it's that simple and those people you don't need. You need to talk to your teen, say "Hey, I really need a hug", sometimes that simple contact will get you through. I can't fathom being in a wheelchair, my RSD is in my hands, which is driving me nuts typing this but I do it because I care! I know the feelings that creep up on you, the loneliness, confusion, anger, frustration at this damn disease RSD!!! But, I need to reach out too!
It took me three husbands and the third is the charm, he was 49 when we married - he said he was waiting for the right woman and RSD was not going to be a factor in his decision to love. I am 38 now and could not believe my luck in finding him. I was a single parent for a long time and dated men who could not handle my condition. It takes a strong heart, lots of love, patience and working together. I did not have RSD with the first 2 and I know they would not have been with me if I had this at that time, they were very weak people. My husband of 2 1/2 years, (4 together) is there for me, supportive and researching but there are times he seems indifferent and I need to say "Hey, I am having a crappy day here!" "Hold me". My 13 year old son sometimes is hurtful "You don't work, what do you do" He knows he is wrong and he at other times is the sweetest kid around. Teens are a rough bunch, but get vulnerable with them and they do start to crack. My friends are far away since I moved 4 years ago and so the computer tends to be my link. But, lately I have been just taking a day to stop at the library, sitting outside on warm days, I will find people around it just takes time.
RSD does not need to define your life, YOU define your life. Find things that make you smile, remember there are people who care, you may just need to jump start them. You did not cause this, it happened! Now you have to "happen".
Just remember you can always reach out on this site and you will find a willing ear, warm heart and tons of strength!

septmystic. you said what I was going to say. Kids, hubby and hugs

I get them all the time because the pain is tooo tooo bad certain days. Hurts toerrible to type but that is for Dragon software when you cannot.

Hugs to all !

Rain