Things might be looking up for me... and I need it right now. I have had a long time of bad luck. Especially after my fall, my symptoms are progressing in my left ankle and a little in that leg. But Seattle finally called! So I have an appointment with University of Washington Medical Center, Center for Pain Relief on August 7. I really hope they do not just tell me what I have been hearing..."There is no more we can do. Just take your pain pills." !!!! I will die!!! I can't stand just giving up. There has to be something better in this life. I don't even feel like I am living. As soon as I wake up I wish it was time to go to bed so the pain will be over. But then I don't even sleep at night anyway!! So what is really the point?? The only difference is at night I can just lay in bed and my daughter is asleep so I don't have to worry. I have been so stressed out lately I just can't handle it. It is just to much pain. One person just can't handle this much pain and especially not alone!! I can't do it for much longer. My rope is running out and I don't know what to do. And what is funny is I will tell my love ones this and they reply that I should be more of a positive person!! I am a very positive person! I am asking no begging for help and they don't care. Then when I get hurt or something happens they yell at me because I never ask for help! I just.... I don't know... I'm done.

So yay seattle!