I'm not sure what is happening to me. I have such a short fuse that it is scaring me. Poor hubby came home and look at one of my new magazines (shape). he said "you used to look like this, you could again if you tried". I'm surprised that I've allowed him to live. I just burst into tears and jumped down his throat. I'm not like that. I know he was kidding, but I started crying, saying that maybe if I was to get cancer I would be able to be thin again. WOW>..that is not me. we have both grown older together. we will be married 30 years in august. I know his humor. He didn't mean anything by it. He's older, bigger, and has wrinkles,same as me. Is it the meds? any suggestions?
Mary

you know, i have turned into a devil myself lately. i constantly scream at my kids, i am not happy with my friends and my husband can do nothing right. he brought me breakfast in bed this morning and i yelled at him because 1. he turned on the light and 2. it was 6:25!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i feel like a selfish, mean, nasty ***** all the time. i feel sorry for my kids and i feel like they hate me. i mean, why shouldn't they? i hate myself most of the time. i have gained 25 pounds and i can't seem to shake it off. all i want to do is eat sugar and go to sleep. i am afraid to get another nerve block, but i feel like my medicine isn't going to be enough after awhile. i am waiting for the other shoe to drop. i have stress everywhere and it's constantly closing in on me.

SHEESH! i wanted to reply to YOU, not rant and rant about my own issues. i am so sorry. i just wanted to say that you aren't alone. i don't know who i am anymore and i wish i could tell you that it is just a season. for what it's worth, i totally feel your pain.

shalom,
angie

the meds, but it is certainly RSD!!I had to go for therapy as I did not even like myself I was so crabby. At work they put up a sign that reads If you are mean, crabby or just plain -----{fill in the blank} there will be a $10. fee for putting up with you. Right in front of me, that was when I went for help.Now I tell people I am having a bad day, please understand IT IS NOT YOU. Also have the Dr. review your meds, you may need to adjust them.But most important--it is not YOU. So when you feel like screaming you really need to be extra kind to yourself, tell others you need a gentle hug and a little patients. And vent here, we all want to scream at one time or other, so we understand. Keeping it inside does not help. Carose

angie,
thank you for that. With you saying how you felt, made me realize that the happy go lucky mary that used to be, seems to be hiding. Why do we get to be so hostile to everyone? at least I'm not along. that in itself make me feel better.

carose,
thank you. i think I may suggest therapy. i see my doc this tues. and I will let hi know how i've been feeling (if I remember lol). Hubby is going with me, but I'm gonna make him stay out while I talk to doc. I try to be happy and upbeat so he doesn't worry. He hates it when he can't fix things.

Mary

OY oy oy, girls, RSD or not - Mary, what, is hubby the Adonis he was? What a thoughtless thing to say!! For anyone! Grrr. And Angie, 6. 15 am, lights on no warning?? More grrr!

What's wrong with these guys? That's them, not you.
Just my $0.2 worth. Grrr.
all the best

angie- [all i want to do is eat sugar and go to sleep]

just made me think and wonder if you have been checked for diabetes or hyperglycemia or hypoglycemia?? since this sugar craving began?

I started getting EXTREME sugar cravings since I started taking Cymbalta. I think it's the meds since I never had this issue this badly before.

hubby was thoughtless, and the yelling was a perfectly normal reaction. if that is his sense of humor, he best change it, because being unable to get in shape and being lazy are two very different things. he opened an emotional can of worms. and yes, being in constant pain can make you more sensitive, how could it not? joan

thanks for all the replies. I so agree. He didn't realize that it made me feel bad. He's been trying really hard to show me he still thinks that I have what it takes. Needless to say, I'm feeling a little better today. He took me to the beauty shop to have my hair done. He keeps saying how much he really likes it. I went from past my shoulders, to just below the ears. He suggested that he help me hose down the horses and put them in their stalls as it is almost 100 out with a heat indicies of 103. I just can't believe that I could get that angry at him for something so stupid. it was wrong for him to say that, but the girl did look to be about 12 on the cover. Ok..my wedding dress was a size 3 and now i'm at 16. I still think I look pretty good for an older gal.
mary

Mary, have to agree with Artist, here.. very thoughless thing to say... kidding or not! As for the "munchies" natural.. I have NEVER been a sweet addict until I was put on Neurotin. Best of luck to you. Glad your feeling better. Love, Desi