Having a rough day, pain bad anxiety high, want to cry, don't know where to turn. It's been a long time for me to have to reach out to someone. I've tried relaxing, I've tried driving because driving even tho causes pain makes me feel better mentally. Can't sleep, eat sometimes not often it isn't staying where it should. I feel useless, worthless, and horrible. No I'm not suicidal. Too me suicide isn't an answer, it's a problem. But as I've said many times if I fall asleep n don't wake up I'm ok with that because I don't fear death, death should fear me. Anyone been here? Got any advice? Trying to not blow up at family and just getting my points a crossed aren't working. Feel like I'm in a big rut with a tiny Prius and not finding away out

Hi mom,
I just read your post. Yep, been there and had it! Not a good place to be for sure.
Luckily I went to spiritual tradition last weekend and that helped me a lot to deal with it all. Reminding me of a greater control than this monster and enabled me to take my thoughts from this monster.
I think the best way to deal with this is to except it is what it is.
Having family and friends who understand is a plus but we don't always have that luxury. Except having this seems to help deal somehow.
I am lucky to be able to give myself to mother earth but not everyone, if anyone, else in here is native so it's hard to explain.
I am sorry for you pain and will think of you in meditation.
Be well my friend...

I do understand native culture, I will be visiting my native friend soon in Missouri, it'll be a long trip but I need her for sure, this to will pass I'm sure, I'm just not sure when

I'm Blackfoot, you?

Me? No. My best friend is. She is actually an Indian princess. I'm not good with all the language but she can handle me n straighten me out lol

Do you know what tribe?