Good news is I figured out why my hip was hurting so bad. I had went up a long ramp, which turned out to be too steep, to visit my dad in the nursing home. Had to do it twice to understand that was the problem. duhhhhh I was anxious to visit my dad for the first time in the nursing home, and my mind was focused on him. Will not go up that ramp again. Meanwhile, I got out the wheeled walker with seat and put it to good use in the house, and the cane outside, and grandmas stool in the kitchen. Hip feels much better now.

All these aids are a positive, not a negative. They are there to help me be functional. To keep me moving. This I need to learn and remember. When we had a little snow in the yard, I took a broomstick with a screw in the bottom of it, in one hand and my cane in the other and I did feel safe. Just being outside, petting the cats in the sun on the porch swing makes me happy.

Simple pleasures are the best.

As for the neurologist visit. I did my best to have no expectations, and I was not disappointed. Found out he will be retiring in April, maybe the next one will take an interest. This one said so it is your back? NO I have RSD in my foot. WOW!
He renewed the meds.

Hubby said later, why did you tell the doctor you gained weight? Did you think it was the medicine? Then he said

"Why worry about your hairdo, when your clothes are on fire."

lol He can see the Gabapentin helping with the pain. He knows what the pain was like without it. He said it is wintertime, and I am not getting outside to walk. He does not see the weight gain as that big of a problem. It took the gabapentin to get me out of bed and walking again. He always says there will be good days and bad days. I can not tell you how much that quote ment to me. That kind of encouragement and compassion.

I will keep on keepin on one day at a time, one baby step at a time. Thanks for listening.
:-)
peace
zinnia