i've not posted since the funeral of our little girl, can't seem to get my act together. Needless to say, my husband is in the same shape as me. We decided to let our other 2 go on vacation with their grandparents. Our girls have been so good, our 12 year old is playing little mother, so it will be nice for her to go with grandma and just get out of this grief. With all the stress, of course i'm flared, but, my pain doc has been great and increased my meds without seeing me. Well, I just wanted to update, I have been lurking and my heart is always with you.