Hi ya all!
I need a little advice right now if you guys have time to spare. How come I feel so worthless. I am having a hard time dealing with my husband right now. I have finally settled my lawsuit against the company that fired me after about 4 yrs of fighting and when I did my husband was not happy because I did not take it all the way to court. I just wanted to get it done because it was taking a lot out of me. I felt that the offer was good enough and was afraid if I took it to court that I would end up getting less as well as them possibly closing my file instead of leaving it open for my rsd. My husband said that it was not enough and I tried to tell him that no amount of money is going to take away my rsd. He still was upset and told me that he was getting tired of supporting me for the last 5 yrs. I told him if he wasn't happy he knew where the door was. He then told me that he could not afford to leave me. I said if that is all you are staying for then just go. He said he also loved me. I told him that when we got the check that I was going to pay off some of the little bills that we accumalated, I was going to catch his fuel bill up for his semi, pay the bill for the repair of his tractor, pay truck country off for his semi,pay his mother off and that the only thing I wanted out of all this money is an above ground 4 foot deep pool with a privacy fence around it. Tonight after talking to him about my daughters school costs for 7th grade he told me we were going to have to wait on a few things. I said like what and he said like the privacy fence and the pool. I asked him why and he said that he was going to need a feeder for his new cattle and that winter was coming and that we needed to get the cattle a heated water tank. It was not my idea to get these cattle in the first place. I asked him to wait until we lived in the house a little longer(we have only lived here a year) and he did not do that. Am I wrong for wanting a little something for myself? I thoght I deserved a little something out of this. Should he get to do what he wants and put my stuff on the backburner because according to him he has supported me for the last five yrs even though it has only been 4 yrs.?I don't usually ask for to much, but once in awhile I would like a little something. I do take care of the house, our daughter, and his cattle while he is gone.I also am going back to school in August. I don't want to spend the money all at one time either. I would like to put away about $5000 in a cd and still have some money in an account for cushioning in case we may need it for something. Again am I thinking wrong, does he deserve most of the money? I have never looked at it his and mine. I have always looked at it as a team that works together.Please help ease my mind!

Tracy