You all are the best! Dont know why I didnt get in here sooner and post up, cause ya all have made me feel mucho better.

I do have some things finally going in my favor, at least it looks like it at the moment lol. I went to a walk in emergency room clinic the other day, and they signed me up for a type of emergency insurance that is good for 3 months at a time, and also gave me an appointment to a pain/primary doctor.

They couldnt do much for me besides prescribe something to get my blood pressure down, but im grateful for even that. The doctor that treated me was the clinics Director. They have several clinics at each of the three hospitals, and it is a 6 month wait usually to get in. But because the director was the treating physician, he got the appointment set in 2 weeks!!

So I am a little relieved, and that helps keep the pain a bit down also.
This RSD has really been surprising me as of late. I was thinking it just cant get much worse than it is already, and low and behold it can, and does get worse.

I cant shake the feeling, and thoughts, that this company that owns and runs all these clinics and hospitals should be paying for my care since they are the ones that put me in this condition to begin with. Every time I have to go down to that hospital/clinic, it reminds me of the fateful day that the doctor looked at me and said Oops! Not, so sorry, or let me take care of that, just OOPS!

I can tell you that I would be held accountable for my oops, but these medical organizations, and doctors can nearly get away with murder in california with no repercussions. Well maybe a slap on the wrist for killing someone, but that is it really. The doctor that did the surgery on me actually caused the death of a woman 2 years after working on me, and they just warned him.

I really need to get over this, but it is sooo hard when you have lost everything, and feel like even your life is gone too.

Well sorry about the rant, just needed to vent a bit.
I hope no one else ever has to go through what I have gone through ever.

I am still feelin pretty cheerful.