and now I want to cry like a baby

Yes today will be my first day without .
The last 3 to several days have been GREAT.
MY burning pain was down to almost nothing
I was more accustomed to the feeling of the ketamine so I was able to do more than just lie around and stare into space like the first week .
I also felt really good- no I mean really really good.I used my hands in ways I haven't used them in years!I cleaned out a garbage disposal
Now I know to many that does not sound very exciting - and on the excitement- o rama meter it probably wouldn't score very high - but when the thought of even putting your hands down there normally has me running in the other direction, this is huge!!!!!!!!
Two weeks ago it would not have been within my realty . Yesterday I said"Wait ,I can do that " and stuck my hand down and messed around in there to see what was stuck in the blades of the the disposal and I pulled the stuff out ." I was grossed out , stunned , and incredulous all at the same time.
My hand did not come out bright red and it did not hurt while I was doing it.
My hands as of right now do not feel fragile and tender on top of the burning and pain.
How long this will last I don't know but I am going to savor every minute of this.
I don't feel "cured" but I feel a whole lot better right now.

It is a little early in the new day to see how things will go.

I do have an appointment with my PM doc this week and I would indeed like to discuss some ways to incorporate ketamine into my lifestyle-and med protocol.
As it has a short half life and leaves the body so quickly maybe 10 or 20 mgs for breakfast may be low enough to just do something before I go anywhere
and maybe a goodnight dose at bedtime so I am not a danger to anyone .
I have no idea if he will be keen on these treatment options but you can never get a "Yes" if you don't ask.

Again,I am very psyched for the potential for this drug for all of us !!!

Even if I don't feel good for long ......I had yesterday (there is a cheezy song in there somewhere )

peace

GnP