I love the Christmas holidays, they have always been my favorite but this year seems harder then last.

I am now dealing with a Virul Eye Infection. My Dr. put me on eye drops Friday and they have done nothing so I go back today.

I haven't found out much about my older brother. He is waiting for test and with 5 other siblings to get answers from none of them know anything until he does.

I'm blessed with great Brothers and Sisters. My Dad use to tell us that the Bible says that brothers and sisters don't fight. We actually heard that so many times that we practically quit fighting with each other. I can count the grownup fights we have all had on one hand so as I said I feel blessed.

Thanks for the input on what to do with Bill's ashes. I am going to call the Undertaker down home and talk to him. He has been a family friend since we were kids so he will be able to help me I am sure. I'm thinking I will have to have the Funeral Director here send them to Sonny. Our graveyard is a family one so I'm sure I will have no problem with that. My thing is just getting the urn down home. I do want to do this. I'm not sure I am ready to let go of them but I most likely won't go back home until after the holidays. I have to have Christmas with my kids. I have never missed one with the boys.

Desi, I always loved having a big family but boy when they start passing it makes it seem not so great at times. You know what it's like. I'm sorry for what you have went through in losing a twin brother, that would be rough. Then losing a baby sister too, you have been through it.

Rogue, I could never afford first class. I couldn't even afford to do this if it wasn't for Susan and Travis. I have been so blessed with them since losing Bill. They have stepped up to the plate and done so much for me that I could never pay them back. I hope to start soon though, they are moving out of my home and we will be renting it out. They will get half of the rent money to help pay them back for all they have done for me. I only flew back home once and it was the most miserable trip I ever had, and it was before RSD even. Too many medical issues back then and lousy plane rides. LOL

Thank you Chemar for all of the great support you have given me through everything. You've been great.

DiMarie, I am sorry I have not PM'd you for awhile. I know how hard this holiday season must be on you. Losing a Child has to be the hardest ever to go through. We always consider them our babies. I am spending Christmas with the boys as I said, I try to keep them upbeat. They are funny though. The kids got me another vehicle and they boys didn't want us to see Bill's truck so Susan and Travis decided to keep it and let them fix it up. Devin actually took the For Sale signs out of the window and then came in and said he had to talk to his Mom first about me selling it. I gave it to them for buying this other vehicle for me. When they get moved the boys will take it to their house and work on it. I can just see the back yard when they get done. Car parts everywhere. LOL

I did stop long enough to call the funeral home and they said they would ship them back so I just need to call Sonny so that is a weight off of me. She said I could do it but I would have to do the proper paperwork so I will get them to ship them to Sonny right before I go back home.

CZZ74, I just wanted to say, we are not strangers here on the forum, we are friends who haven't met.

Sandel, we do need that hug option on here, huh? It use to be I couldn't let anyone hug me, but through councelling, I am a hugger now. LOL

Ali, I do hope your cousin does ok. 3 years old. How sad. I just had a 2 year old great neice go through 2 years of chemo and surgeries and she is doing great now so I know she can get better, as can you.

Thanks again for all of your support.

Ada

Good luck.

Get that eye under control and have a great holiday.