dear friends

HOPE

blessings for the day

i have a family get together
coming this week-end
Easter Sunday
my sons birthday
Christines prayers
no expectations in the works
keep praying
plan on spreading LOVE
the last time we were
together like this was 1998
Christmas yeh
Thank you
soon after that went
all away
full circle
thank you God
thank you Jesus
thank you Family
Eva Olie extended Friends


HOPE don't let go
until then
HOPE all goes well
for all spread the LOVE
smiling every time
i think about it
blessings in your day

Dear Eva, God loveth the cheerful giver, as you definitely are,
bringing us remembrance of HOPE!

In hope may you know I am blessed to awaken this morning reminded by you of Hope,
In Love may you know I am blessed to dispense love as far and wide as God will direct me, for Love is great and from God. I have Love for so many, including you my Friend, and today, like any other requres much Love for self worth, validation, honoring God, and delivering faith, hope and love to whomever I meet.

I feel blessed first thing this morning, to bring love to you and all whose eyes fall upon these words,
Agape,
Mark56

Blessed to have come home early today to sleep. I dunno about side effects of radioactive stuff, but I think maybe it made me tired, exceptionally so. Weary, wounded, weak, feet swollen and discolored patchy, hurt like immersed in boiling oil, right arm a companion of my lower legs.

Nevertheless, I feel blessed at the rest of mid-day sleep when I needed it. 12 to 7, now tired again and signing off. Hurt a lot. Many tests going on. We will find out something,

Blessed to have a left arm unaffected by this chorus of pain, and an SCS covering exactly what it was programmed to hit.

Blessed,
Thank you God for comforting me,
and so many others,
Mark56:circlel ove:

P.S. Lord watch over my little boy who used to cuddle under my sleep shirt as we sat together. Watch over him and his Battalion as they deploy on a mission in a part of the world where they are at once so wanted and yet so hated. Comfort all families affected thusly Lord.

rest rest rest

special time

GODS always with you

Mark.....you've been through so much. Your poor body is wiped out. I'm glad you are able to rest. Rest in His Peace....

Praying for that shield of protection around your boy and the rest of those brave folks who so painstakingly give of themselves. May God grant them the strength they need and watch over their every move.

Amen....

Rae

What you describe; the swollen feet, discolored patches as well as the burning, could be me. The swelling turned out to be from Edema (take 2 pills daily for almost three years). At just about the same time, the discoloration and patches started, which turned out to be Statsis Dermatatis. This along with the burning in those areas are really rough. At first, I thought the burning was from the Statsis Dermatatis; but the doctor said the burning was from the PN.

You have gone thru so much poking and prodding for the past week or so. No wonder you are exhausted and tired. Your poor body is crying for REST my dear friend.

As always, praying....

(Ger)

dear friends

acceptance

God grant me the Serenity
to Accept the things i cannot change
the Courage to change the things
i can
and the Wisdom
to know the difference

It has a hold on me
and i just keep trying
to sake it
the pain is constant
and when on my meds i
have found a awful lot of
my memory needs to be
punched around
as of an hour or more
i started to rustle in my
uncomfortable sleep
like this the past few nights
i didn't take my meds
before bed just couldn't
see taking them when
i was still medicated
too much dung going on
that big and much too
it is early saturday
and who the heck do i think
i am
not to long ago
a man
a beautiful man
who understood
was beaten and
nailed onto his cross
no one but who am
i to holler out i am in
pain
the elderly suffer many
years until very old age
in physical pain
the woman who shared
a room with me let her
sit in her feces for more
than 5 hours this was
after my first cervical fusions
i asked my shrink why is
it i worry about others who
aren't even my concern
it is who we are he says
would anyone who has been
following me please for the
love of God the love of
Jesus help me see as i
clearly see i cannot do things
without your help
and right now i have
to understand that my
life has is and will be
forever changed
dear Lord
you know me as a fighter
you know i don't give up
not until we or i get to the
truth of the matter
do you want me to submit
give in
give up
is that why you
are pushing me
please don't push me
i would be happy to do
your work
to what do i do with this pain
just take my meds and move
along
a person gave me 75% odds
never anything about failure
why won't i let it go
i feel violated taken
lied at ignored
it has been 5 months since
given the script for i still
haven't fused yet
5 months
is it fair to say i after finding
my cancer and dealing with
that now something
and i don't have it in me
and until i go to yet another
doctor get a script have the
scan after dealing with my balloons
with 0 no none nada ziltch feeling
but grateful cut the cancer off
yeh it is that acceptance
working on it

thank you LORD for you have risen
sitting at the right hand of our father

my fathers 32 years ago killed himself
with a gun right around the block
from our family home their dream home
3 years later go into labor
my sons birthday Easter Sunday
my family will be in my home Sunday
amen amen amen

to all may your hearts be filled
with the Spirit of Love
JOY JOY JOY
and Happiness all
in the world

dear Lord
allow me the art of forgiveness
and lead us not into temptation
deliver us from evil
Amen


happy holidays all

He came, a lamb, a gift for you and me
to teach us love, a love we must share free
His beauty of life, of eyes so filled with awe
He knew the reach of His father's constant draw.

You see, this precious one who came among to teach
was filled with longing, a pulling, the soul of all to reach
He knew the time was precious in this life
and humans we were practiced well to bring out strife.

The love of God, eternity concerned
had sent His Son simple lessons for us to learn
take heed of love and share as it fills you
to give to all, not held tight for precious few.

He lived a love which spread through many there
and taught its gift was meant for everywhere
No fool, He threw the changers from the church
where God was come as Holy, e'en from His simple birth.

The spark He left for souls to heal today
He shared from Calvary subjected to human ways
of fear, and anger run amok through some
who thought this Man was surely not God's Son.

Imagine the life of God through many eyes
now shines so brightly it waits for Easter rise
to celebrate the gift full paid through Calvary
of life ever with God, Son, Spirit, all one though they are three.

Thank You Father,
Thank You Holy Spirit,
Thank You Jesus,
May all be blessed [and Eva feel ever so much so]
Amen

Knowing God loves ALL without exception. One might be said to be crazy enunciating such a thought, but just imagine He who came as Christ, intended to draw all of us toward God. Were we just to reach, each in our own way to achieve that relationship, the only war, the only crime, the only pestilence would be courtesy of the deceiver, for all humanity would be joined as one.

Sure, one can speak such is lunacy and a prediliction toward end times, but so what? If we all have God how can we have anything less, except by falling prey to the deceiver?

A wily one that one. One who would see people throw themselves off of the Golden Gate and call it good, or throw armaments against other humans and call it good, or see with great relish RELIGIOUS WARS. I suspect God cries heavy tears when humankind is so deceived into believing war for the sake of religion is good.

Today was a great blessing in our lives, in this home, among people from other homes who chose, each with their own difficulties to bear and blessings to know in thanks, to share time with our family greeting one another over a table on which our first holiday was shared as provided by God. I am grateful for the saving grace shown to us by one who gave all that we might live.

I am grateful despite pain, there are blessings to count, which, once added up give me cause to smile in the face of pain. To laugh in the face of the deceiver who would have me fall into some sort of funk, a depression, a sense of loss whence one may not recover. Thank you God for delivering all of us for the sake of acknowledging blessings here in this safe place.

Blessed,
Praying for you,
Mark56

As you know Easter is a time of renewal. I need your prayers today. I have been given new hope that a solution can happen for my ankles, so I don't have to loose my ability to walk. I get a MRI today. This new orthopedic doctor thinks my diagnosis has been wrong these past 7 years. This test is a gift, as it gives me hope, that I can walk better. This new doctor gave me that renewal in my heart, and I do ask that you keep both my new doctor and me in your prayers. His name is doctor Cottom. Thank you Eva! ginnie