dear God
how i need to feel your
touch your breath
your calm as there is storm
surrender all and given to you
i understand is my way of
ever recovering and healing
bringing me closer and closer
to becoming free from my mind
it too has a hold on me as i am only
human and must face adversities
now more than ever having been
restricted physically and am fighting
it that means i have to take stronger
meds
being absent
i had company this weekend
this is a very dear friend meant to
meet turns out her name is eva also
both of her parents passed ready
when one day i called my job she
answered the phone and we began talking
turns out we share the same middle name
ready, and both her parents are Hungarian
NOW IF THAT ISN'T MY GOD AT WORK I DON'T
KNOW WHAT IS
so she suffered a stroke
a ruptured bleed in the brain
she too is in a rough place
having a good heart to heart
hope to see her soon from PA
traveled here to attend a funeral
for a fellow employee younger than us
paramedic passed away with the same
ailment she had
grateful for many things
protecting my child who lives
with me from her fathers
behavior is a struggle each
and every time i express my
concerns about it, it becomes a mess
a man i allowed into my life
in the end all based on lies
even as i speak of this Lord
CORISSA i always wanted
we were adults
i knew there might become
pregnant as i know the truth
he knew the chance
and as she wrote
my Angel
i answer TO YOU MY GOD
but i refuse to take his crap
relentless i will be
both men i had children with
turned out to lie, steal and not
worthy of the title FATHER they
were so wrong but that would
mean no Saraeve, Michael, Christine and
Corissa who's dada is being a real jerk
is more than i should have to deal with
right now
CORISSA is priority
and i'm not working
therefore if she needs ANYTHING
i will make it happen
as i stand in truth
and his apology was empty
i will not deal with liars
help me help her understand
help me help myself not
stress over unnecessary
i would like to be happy
my wish to be happy
and appreciated and
respected
thank you God
my son working hard to make
it in life brilliant he is
i hope they all find happiness
is that silly of me
we all suffer one way or
another we at the moment
are not angry at one another
they come home to make things right
for that blessing thank you Lord
as togetherness as a family is important
to all
thank you Lord
my relationship with
you is as important
may i feel the Spirit
may we all feel the Spirit
i wish all i have come
to know here the same
GOD BE WITH US
AS
THY WILL BE DONE
AMEN!

SOMEONE WHO CARES

We who live this struggle
are not without one who cares
for He is overwatching our every thought
crying with us when tears are bidden to our eyes
laughing with us when our bellies shake tremendously with joy
and wrapping us in His arms of Love
for He longs to have us whole
and in this new day
a day preceded by a little bit of much needed precipitation
there is a good bit of blessing for which to be grateful
as the day is pretty
the calm of the afternoon after worship
has allowed me both time for study as I prepare for a monster exam
and
a NAP, Ahhhh..........
how I so long to be held as well
and glad to receive hugs from my wife
from my family
from my church family
from He who embraces me
whenever and wherever I am as He is
the great I AM
and I am beheld as one
whom He wants to bless, giving comfort
and peace
it feels good
I feel good
blessed

to my wise dear brother
your experiences have humbled
you have a conscious understanding
what we all strive for
without consciousness
there is evil

i believe it is all in the eyes
i respect one who looks at me
when in company
revealing thru eye contact
is important

my increase in meds
affect me differently
it is Vicodin 7.5-325
wondering and paying
attention what it does
my body still has to
get back to steady
routine taking at specif times
until my body and mind are
back to some normalcy
trying to stay up beat
not tough at all she is so
precious
gave her her own
wash towel and went around
helping me was such a big deal
it was hammy
anyhow my dear loving angel
is still sleeping
to my dear friends who have
become instrumental in my
time here and am practicing
advise given

blessed i am
thank you Lord Jesus

someone who cares

How it charms the spirit and numbs the mind
yes, I have used and used it under prescription as a pain management med
it works subject to the first line of this message

Even so, dear Eva, we who here gather always hold you up in prayer
for we
are the legion who care
mark56

Where have you gone?

I miss you.

Could use prayers myself.

m

I have not stopped praying for you, eva, Gerry, whole gang here. Each day, every day, without fail. The folks on NT are on my mind often Mark. I hope Eva is OK too. You have added prayers coming. ginnie

my dear brother
i apologize
would not leave
a place i have come to love
a place that hasn't turned or pushed
me away
you my
dear have me in tears
much is going on here will
speak PM if alright with
you
how can i help you just ask
do you need that shoulder
it's yours
please take me out of
my own head
much has been going on here
visitors going to doctors
and was deleting alot of questions
asked joining e harmony
just found out
from my daughter
a women met someone
who was then stabbed many times
and is suing for 10 million
i am fighting for life as it is
i am praying for that special someone
right now that someone is
you, gerry, and
those who have come to know me
as i pray all to be whell
i will await you message
always praying the our father

Eva

PS. the baby has been with us everyday for the last two weeks mommy has got a apartment not to far from us

Dearest Eva,
So glad to hear from you. You know how "special" you are to me.

Will PM next week with time for call. Doctor and Dentist this past week and gyny and surgeon next week; but will talk with you soon.

You are in my daily prayers,

Gerry

So very glad to see your keystrokes, as I know how difficult they are to make. Those pencil eraser character strikes, one at a time, must exhaust.
I lamented not seeing you of late, and had concern for you. So I pray. Glad Baby Eva has been with you to bring you joy.

Thank you for prayers in earnest. I wish I could offload the challenges here, yet I cannot. So I ask for prayers in general as prayers of blessed intention regardless of the known intercession are wholly as potent as those which are burdened by fact. The Our Father, the Hail Mary, prayers of supplication yielding to our Father in all things are fully and accurately lifted up.

Your prayers thus given help beyond measure dear friend,
Agape,
m

Who being such as I am have the enfolding blessing of your prayers,
all of you,
for
you are friends who drop in for saving grace
willing ever to share
giving of self
beautiful
I
am
blessed
m