i am so so sorry

well i will continue remembering
carla called my daughter to the next day
after having no choice but to sign a revised
one and ask a friend for her help in this matter
they must do a background check on a 72 year old
woman my second mom
POINT........................................EVA

CALLED MY DAUGHTER TO SAY
WE "FOUND" SOME MORE PAPERS



TO BE CONTINUED
TO ANGRY IN TEARS









someone who cares

Until the court date in September and her doing what she MUST
I am responsible for this child with the help of my friend and
daughter will pick her up and bring her here and watch her
I thank God they didn't take her
BUT TO BE FORCED TO DO SO AS ALL WAS JUST
GOING SMOOTHLY WHEN CHRISTINA WHO SET A PLAN
UP AND IT WAS IN MOTION FOR OVER A MONTH
AND STILL DO NOT HAVE MY PAPERS DUE ME AS THEY
CONTACTED MY DAUGHTER AND SAID WE FOUND SOME MORE
AND I'M THINKING TO MYSELF
WHAT DID SHE MEAN
WE FOUND SOMEMORE PAPERS

I am sick
Just plain sick of IT all
There is so much more
And my fingers hurt
Using my iTouch

will try to relax with my daughter
Give her a day we were to have
2 weeks ago until this came to hit us

Thanking you for letting me share
my experience strength and hope

Someone who cares

you do and do and pray
I am not enabling in anyway
That the reason be as the family
I so quirked out as my children are
assuredly aware
and you would think they
would get the help that is
necessary to get through this
life in a honest loving way

Damnit how much more does a mother
and father in my case both my roles
NEVER EXCERISED THEIR RIGHTS
AND NOW TO THINK ITS OKAY
AND IG NEVER WAS
heck I don't even know where I want to
go with this
doing all I can
Amen!

Someone who cares

I should have put this post in here .. so ... here it is:

I should also say, the Doctor said that Diazepam and Tamazepam were quote: The Devil's Work, unquote.


Well! I feel thrown out with the bath water!

I went to the Pain Clinic yesterday and saw a new Doctor. He was HOPELESS.

He basically told me to stop taking Morphine (that it should only be used for terminal cancer patients) .. saw I had successfully dropped from 60mg slow release Zomorph twice daily to 30mg and told me to keep dropping it. I asked him what I would do for the pain then, because prior to getting the appointment with him I had been considering approaching my Doctor to increase the dose as my pain is getting worse, and spreading sciatic pain to my right buttock and thigh. He said that he knew of patients who gradually stopped their Morphine and didn't feel that their pain was any worse without it.

I then asked why my back was getting worse and my right buttock .. he pointed to my crutches and said that they were probably the cause. I explained that I had had these for years, so why now? He said that they had probably altered my spine .. (How he knows this without an MRI I don't know)

He didn't listen to what I had to say .. offered no other treatments or medicatons .. I might just aswell have gone to my own Doctor as she would have been more help.

I ended up just walking out.

What a plunket! (Derogatory term .. it's also his name, so from now on when anyone does something stupid I am calling them a plunket!)

I came out in terms as I was not only in pain from making the journey on my own as no one else could take me, but I was frustrated by my appointment with him.

He also confirmed that there is no possibility of any other surgery as the scarring on my back is too severe.

It's a good job I'm in a good place (mentally wise) or I would have been in pieces.

A PLUNKET then he is!!!! So sorry you have had this occurrence as you were trying to find relief. Offering no remediation relief for the suffering you endure, one can only hope this particular PLUNKET will one day learn up close and personal via his own devil call to pain just how it feels...... compassion, so where was that compassion in PLUNKET's countenance?

Never had it did he!

Arghhhh......

I pray for your situation in all of these recent vent matters I have read in catching up to the thread...... so very sorry it has been a terrible go lately. I realize the cop was just trying to do the tasked job, but I kinda hope you bruised their foot with the door when they were jamming it in your space that day.

The system. I try and strive to work within it, and there are moments when I wonder why we have "the system." People, those who are being "served" often seem casualties of "the system."

HUGZ,

Who I should say running into their title
have you herd will clean up the corruption of
any kind if i was able to bring down with the
help of my friend a Cathy we did it Judge looked at
us and nodded job well done

They can be jury and judge
if I do not move along as I have
then I put Eva at jeopardy

I adore my family
My daughter relapsed
in the last two days
Both not just the dingbat
caseworker who was here
again
looking through my pantry
my apartment
made the mistake of judging
and oh how beautiful the apartment
thanked her and added it came with
headache
we did accomplish with a plan back to
a facility where mother and daughter are
together
but to daughter a plunket in this case
I know of addiction personally it is in my
family and their fathers (both) family
for this I am part plunket
I love my daughter
She took herself to the hospital
my fear suicide
she took herself in because of that
possible thought
She didn't express that
however I know she is
frustrated and can't understand
addiction has a hold and it doesn't
MEAN SHE IS A BAD MOTHER
she is a great MOTHER


ADDICTION OF ANY KIND DOES NOT
DISCRIMINATE
LET US NEVER FORGET THAT
Amen!
Lord awaiting to hear from her
She called that she got there
Connection was bad
have no clue yet
Angels watch over her
Let her feel your flannel shirt
in her heart calm her fears
Amen!

someone who cares

Oh dear Eva,
saying prayers with these key strokes to suround her with protection in the Light of God.
HB