Gentle HUGZ to you my friend

i so thank you as my hugs must be
GENTLE
and how do you say that too your
grandbaby when she runs into my arms
when she says come on mimma
OR WHEN I GIVE HER A BATH
OR CHANGE HER ALL DONE AS I SIT
ON THE FLOOR
she'll get up wrap her arms around my neck
squeeze me and say
"I LOVE YOU MIMMA"

THAT'S ALL I HAVE TO SAY!

When I was going through an incredibly awful time with a close family member's severe illness and disbelieving/unhelpful/hurtful legal system, a friend and fellow church member told me this. I know no one's situation is ever the same but I hope it can give you a measure of the comfort it gave me:

When my church family was asked to pray for our family in the "silent" prayers said in service one Sunday, my friend told us she felt as though all the prayers being said there and all the prayers that had been and would be said were gathering into a small tornado and that tornado was branching off and surrounding each member of our family and each of us who hurt, making a sort of "fierce cocoon of God's love" that not only held us tightly but also protected us, even though we could not see that protection and had many times of doubt. Every time things got so awful that the sadness/frustration/anger/pain/fatigue etc. seemed to well up, I would think of that cocoon of prayers and love that all those who cared about me (God included) had surrounded me with and how it was with me always to hold me up and be there to lean on. Sometimes the focus on the knowledge of all that love was only able to make things a tiny bit better, but it always seemed that even that tiny bit gave me the strength and hope I needed. I see all the love and prayers that your fellow members are pouring out for you and I hope that my story might help magnify and make that love last longer for you. And even though I'm new, I hope that you will accept one more prayer, offered with love and hoping you will have a chance to feel the tornado around you!

I just want to let you know
I understand your message
I had to come back and read
this as I will replace the havoc
with the outpouring of concern
and a very empowering view
THANK YOU FOR YOUR INSIGHT

someone who care
GOD BLESS

i don't have to much to say
other than having to
start over again
really
no kidding
dear Lord
hear our prayers
on this road i revisit

Sending prays for you. Please let us know how you are and remember there are many here who care!

z

your well wish accepted

my shrink put it into perspective
"i wake up with my surgeon and
retire to bed with him"
i do not under any circumstances
wish for such a thing
i am so happy to have found this
wondrous place a home of persons
one by one day by day here this place
a place i was welcomed into as
a beginner
thank you

would someone shut the FRONT door

how is this to be almost identical
to my experience
now on my left side ache
a dull gnawing
oh my God not the left
and its not going away
this pinching in my neck
i am certain all of us
experience as if your
most sensitive and hurtful
i refer to it as a sweet spot
kind of pain magnified to
almost black out pain

I AM TOTALLY PERPLEXED
WHAT THE FRUIT IS
GOING ON

i can point to my pain
in my left shoulder
all this is replay
LORD I ASK YOU
PLEASE EXCUSE MY
BEHAVIOR
if that is what is the problem
being honest a life choice
rarely chosen
for now this is enough
said